I wanted him to love me back. I wanted him to look at me the way he looks at her. Its not fair. I fixed myself so he would like me. I changed everything about myself. Yet, nothing ever goes my way. It's not fair.
I asked dazai for advice and followed everything. But he still doesn't love me. They always told me "he doesn't love you."
it's not fair. not fair. not fair
I love him. Why doesn't he love me back. I want him. He wants me. He needs me. He can't live without me. Chuuya needs me. Chuuya loves me.
I'm his best friend. The only person who cares about him. He should be with me, kissing him, hugging him, fucking him.
It should all be me. It's not fair.
I'll take care of him. Brush his beautiful hair, make him any kind of food he wishes for, anything he wants.
Why can't he see how much i love him. I'll love him till the day I die.
He's mine. He's mine. He's mine. Dazai thinks he should be with me, and he's always right. He's too good to be with someone else. He's beautiful. He's perfect.
He is my everything. it's just not fair
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sorry for such a short chapter i thought i should put out something at least. school is really shitting on me
