Not My Cup of Tea // L.S.

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This gif should give you a faint idea of what to expect.

Sit with a box of tissues : (

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Harry took a deep breath, "Okay so you listen to everything and then speak, alright? Just, please, don't interrupt me, yeah?" "Okay, sure."

Harry began, "So everything was wonderful in my house. I used to get high grades in all exams from the very start. I was the topper of my class. I had many friends, like, a lot. Both girls and boys. Most girls would try to catch my attention, would flirt with me, lean on me and all. I used to get attracted to them at start, but not very much. After a few months, I found it weird that I never felt interested in any girl or any of the things they did towards me. I spoke to Zayn about this, because he was and is my best friend, and we've known each other for 12 years now. He said I should give myself some more time to know my sexuality. That time, we I was fifteen and he was almost seventeen. When he turned seventeen, he came out to his parents and sisters. They were very open to him being gay and accepted him just as he was. I was very happy and thought that if I turned out to be gay, maybe my parents would also accept me the way Zayn's parents accepted him. My parents and Zayn's parents were close as well so I thought they would have alike views on such matters. However, I wasn't sure about my sexuality so I never spoke to my parents about this."

He paused for taking another breath. Louis rubbed his back soothingly to calm him down. Harry smiled at him and Louis nodded, encouraging him to go on.

Harry continued, "Then Zayn had to go to Uni. So, we were apart for a long time. We would text each other regularly though. Zayn told me on his first day of Uni that he had seen a boy in his Spanish class, who was also a newbie just like him. He told me he was feeling really attracted towards him, even though it had been only one day. That boy was Liam. Every day, he would call me and describe Liam in all possible ways. It was really annoying though, but I would never tell him that. This went on for many months and one day, I saw a new boy in our school. He had blue eyes and was of average height. I kinda started liking him. His name was Ashton. I didn't tell anyone though, not even Zayn. I would get goosebumps if I saw him while having lunch, or if I accidentally crossed him in the corridor or any other time of the day. Remember me telling you I never had a crush? That was a lie...That was when I thought I would tell Zayn that I was gay. I told him and he was very happy and of course, accepted me whole-heartedly. He advised me to tell my parents as well. I said I would do that soon. Time flew and it was almost time to become for my sixteenth birthday. I had even chosen my subjects for Uni, one year early. It was always clear in my head that I wanted to become a singer or song-writer. So, my sixteenth birthday. That was the day I came out to them but..."

Harry stopped abruptly. He felt tears pool in the corner of his eyes. He closed his eyes. They slid out and dropped one-by-one. Louis moved closer and cupped Harry's face. He thumber away the tears and caressed Harry's cheek with his thumb, "It's alright Haz, calm down, don't cry. Don't cry babe, I hate seeing your gorgeous green eyes fill with tears. It'll be fine. It's okay baby, it's okay. I'm here and I'll always support you. Always."

Harry smiled, "Thanks Lou. Now, as I was saying, it was my sixteenth birthday and I decided to come out. I thought I would first come out to my sister then to my parents, because she was more understanding and closer to me. I came out to her that very morning. I wasn't wrong. She was very happy, she hugged me and accepted me the way I was. She told me that she was very proud of me to have come out. Then, I told her I would come out to mum and dad at the end of the day and till then she shouldn't tell them anything. She agreed. The day was full of surprises and gifts. Well, the night was a surprise too, just in a negative way."