ALLURING VISION

ON MY DEATH BED

Pain in my body was what I had realized,

The pain grew more and more each day and I was not able to survive.

I am not a person who shed tears for anything,

Yes,I do sometimes, sometimes in the sense often.

But I had never been alone.

My lord always reminds me to be strong,

Cause this pains was erasing my sins that I made.

Intentionally or unintentionally yet I made those stain.

Those stain which made me disgust in pain.

Which was hard to forget but still I fought for.

I fought for the mistakes and sins I made,

I asked forgiveness to my lord each and every day.

Those dreadful days when I had gone through pain,

Still I managed to stand up and pray.

I remember those teachings I used to run away from,

Those teachings of prophet that I am following today.

It give me peace even though I am suffering,

From those dreadful pain. I know that it's just the beginning.

I had to remind myself before I break down,

It was hard but still I managed somehow.

because I knew that my lord was testing me.

I want to pass those all test, which I couldn't pass in the beginning.

I want my lord to forgive what I had done,

Even though I know I have no time left,

As I saw, I was running towards the darkness.

Were light once appeared and vanished.

I prayed all my night even though I was on my deathbed,

Struggling to form words which were depressed.

I prayed day and night,

"Oh Lord! Forgive me for what I had done intentionally or unintentionally, as You are "The Merciful" of all.

Oh Lord! Give me the strength to endure the pain and to pass all your test.

Oh Lord! Give strength to my parents to be strong and to bear the lost.

Oh Lord! Have mercy upon those follower of yours who were gone astray.

Oh Lord! Oh Lord! Forgive me, my beloved ones , and the Ummah of prophet.

You are the one and only we could ask and the one whom we have full trust.

You are the one whom we rely upon, to whom we depend upon.

Oh Lord! Give all of us the strength to hold on to your test.

Give us a time to repent, repent for those mistake which made us burn inside, which....which made us guilty in Your eyes.

Oh Lord! Oh Lord! Ya Allah! ....................laillah ha...........illallah..............muhammadur...........rasooolullahhhh...........and I breath my last breath!!.

I knew that this day would come, not only to me but to everyone.

It is the day you have to face your Lord and answer what had gone.

It was the real beginning of life, Which we had forgot.

So ask forgives before its too late,

Or else you will have to go through pain.

I am not threatening or scaring anyone,

I am just stating the truth which will be done.

Every time when you feel you cannot go on,

Just remember your torments you will have to face,

If you don't pass all your tests.

Pray with all your heart and mind,

Prepare yourself to face your Lord.

To be able to answer what had been taught.

Fear your Lord not anyone, cause he is the reason of your existences.

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HEY GUYS,

hope you all enjoy reading my poem, while writing this poem I literally cried. It was soo hard for me to write this but I managed somehow. I know it's kinda big, people usually prefer small and nice poems. But I couldn't stop writing it. I hope you all like it. I would like to thank zzuuhhaa because while I was reading her poem I got this idea to write a poem on our deathbed. Her poems are so good that some of her poems gave me goosebumps, and I literally cried. And shout out to all the people who supported me and encouraged me to write more. Some of them I remember are

@Enna40

@Lottie_777

@Shabistaah

@Husnashajer

@FatiSha1

@whitetigerxx

@TheQueenOfSlumber

and......Everyone whom I forgot.

You people helped me in some or the other way. I don't know how but I am soo honored to have your support.

Love

Aysha