Falsettos one-shots (discontinued)

Bad Dreams

Get ready y'all it's big sad time

It has been about 5 weeks since Whizzers funeral. Marvin was still having very, very hard time with trying to deal with this but who can blame him. He lost Whizzer not once be twice. First then he kicked him out which he'll forever regret since that two years were just time he wasted, but without those two years marvin would've matured and realize how much Whizzer meant to him.

Every since Whizzer died marvin kept getting these horrible dreams which caused his insomnia to act up more and more. Some nights marvin would barely get any sleep so he was doing really bad. Lately he's been noticing that his chest hurt a little when he took to deep of a breath. This scared him. Whizzer told him when they first got him to the hospital that the first thing that he noticed was his chest hurting when he breathed. "Why, why couldn't you tell me when it first showed up" Marvin said softly as he laid down in his bed that he used to share with Whizzer. Another sleepless night. Marvin turned so that he was laying on his back and not his stomach. In marvins head he could hear Whizzer yelling at him to get some sleep since he barely got any for weeks. "I know I know Whizz" Marvin said a bit and sat up. "I just.... I just miss you so much" his voice cracked a bit at the end and he wrapped his arms around himself. Marvin wiped his eyes with the palm of his hand. He let out a shaky sigh then hit hit the bed with the same hand. He gripped onto the bed. He never felt so alone.

Soon tears were rolling down his cheeks. He was tired, too tired and yet he couldn't fall asleep. He pulled his legs up to his chest and rested his forehead on his knees. "Why... why did you have to leave so soon.. I-it was too soon, I just had you again and and" he choked out. "Then you were gone just like that, but this time I can't get you back" Marvin sobbed as he ranted out loud. "Please just come back... I can't even remember the sweet sound of your laugh of voice" Marvin trembled and pulled at his own hair. He feared so much that he'd forget Whizzer, he didn't want to, he really didn't want to forget the one person he truly loved.

Marvin sat there crying and trembling for a bit until he wiped his face and blew his nose. He let out a shaky breath and got out of bed. He went downstairs to the kitchen and grabbed himself a glass of water. Marvin stood by the sink and looked into his cup with glossy eyes. Bean, Whizzers cat that he got around when they first got back together. He got up out of his bed and stretched, the sound of the little bell on his collar jingled a bit. Marvin jumped and nearly dropped his cup. He didn't know bean was sleeping in his cat bed, he just thought that he was sleeping on the couch on a blanket like he usually does. Marvin turned around  to look at him. "Nearly scared me to death" he said quietly to bean as he walked over to him and rubbed against his leg. Marvin smiled sadly at bean. He put his cup down and picked bean up petting him, bean purred. Marvin smiled a little more. If marvin didn't have Jason, bean would've been the only thing that he got left apart from his two friends, Cordelia and Charlotte but they haven't talked in a while since they knew marvin didn't want to talk so they didn't force it. Marvin turned off the kitchen light and went back to his room with Bean in his arms.

Marvin got back to his bed, put bean down and closed the door. Bean laid down on Whizzers side of the bed. Marvin looked at him and then just got under the covers. Bean curled up into a ball right in front of Whizzers old pillow. Marvin laid in his side and watched beans chest rise and fall as he breathed. Not to long after marvin actually managed to fall asleep with the cover pulled up to his ears. It was probably all the crying that helped him fall asleep.

Marvin woke up in his and Whizzers bed. Whizzers side of the bed was warm. He sat up with the morning sunlight pouring in through the curtains. He looked around and saw his and Whizzers clothes laying on the floor from the previous night. He chuckled a bit and put on his trousers and pants. He went downstairs and smelt Whizzer cooking breakfast. Whizzer turned to him. "Morning sleepy head" he smiled sweetly. Marvin smiled back. "Morning" Whizzer went back to cooking and Marvin went over to him wrapping his arms around Whizzers bare waist since he wasn't wearing a shirt either. Marvin shoved his face into Whizzers neck and whizzer chuckled softly. "Did you sleep well?" Whizzer asked as he put the eggs onto two plates. "Yes, just because you where there" Marvin said into Whizzers neck. Whizzer smiled. "Ahh" Marvin sighed contently. "I wish we could stay like this forever" Whizzer stopped and looked at him. "But it will marvin" Marvin looked up at him, his grip around his waist loosening a bit. " what" he said barely over a whisper. "We're dead"

Marvin shot up out of bed and leaned against the bed frame with tears flowing down his cheeks. He put his hands over his ears and whispered to himself. "It was just a dream it was just a dream it was just a dream" marvin sat there shaking with his eyes tightly shut. "Marvin" said an disembodied voice. Marvins head shot up and he looked around. He could see the faint outline of someone else sitting on the bed with him. Marvin nearly screamed but slapped his hand over his mouth so he wouldn't and quickly moved back more. 

Marvin stared at the outline, tears still falling down his face. Something was familiar about the outline but marvin couldn't put his finger on it. It was until the outline put its hand in marvins leg and he jumped a bit. "...... Whizzer?" Marvin looked at the faint outline of a hand on his leg then looked back up with his hands pulled close to his chest. The outline of what marvin thought was Whizzers moved a bit closer to him. "It is you..." he said very very softly, he felt tears start to swell his eyes again. Whizzer moved his hand to Marvins cheek and Marvin could feel the comforting warmth in Whizzers hand. All the emotions came flooding in at once and it became all to much for Marvin to handle so he started crying again. Whizzer couldn't say anything, mostly cause he didn't know what to say. He wrapped his arms around marvin as he sobbed into his chest. Whizzer silently tried to calm marvin down by rubbing his back. Marvin tried to pull himself together but kept falling apart. "W-why did you have to leave me" Marvin sobbed and choked on his tears. ".... please just say something I miss you voice so much it hurts" Marvin tried to control his breathing but failed. Whizzer bit his lip. "Oh marvin" Whizzer stroked his hair like how he would whenever marvin would have panic attacks. "It's gonna be alright, I'm fine you don't have to worry about me" his voice was faint but marvin could still hear him enough which caused him to sob more. ".... I don't want to forget you" Marvin said as he still choked on his tears. Whizzer frowned. "I don't think that could happen marvin, you still have Jason to remind you, you still have all those photos we took together over the years.... I miss you too and I love you so, so much. I wanna see you live on" Whizzer said to him. Marvin looked down and tried to even out his breathing. "I love you too" he managed to say through his struggles of trying to calm down. "Tell Jason that I love him so much" Whizzer said to Marvin and Marvin looked up at him and nodded. "I love you, Marv" Marvin stoped breathing for a second, those words. They were exactly what Whizzer had said to him before he died. Marvin tried to grabbed his hand but just grabbed air. "Please don't go again, I don't know if I can handle seeing you leave again" Marvin bit his lip choking back tears. Marvin was shaking a lot. Whizzer looked at him. "I'm sorry marvin but I can't..." Marvin looked down, he dug his nails into his wrist. "........I love you too" he said very quietly after a bit, but Whizzer was already gone. Marvin looked up through his glossy and puffy eyes from crying. He dug his nailed into his wrist deeper not noticed it draw small dots of blood. Marvin leaned forward crying.

"Dad?" Jason stood in his fathers doorframe. Marvin had completely forgotten that it was the weekend and that Jason finally started coming back over to marvins house. Marvin looked up to his son. "Jason I-" Marvin said his voice a little horse from sobbing. Jason just came in and sat beside marvin. Marvin looked at his son and wrapped his arms around him putting his head on top of Jason. Jason felt his bottom lip start to quiver next thing you know Jason was crying into marvin chest. "I miss him dad" he cried. Jason heard marvin talking but didn't hear Whizzer. "I know Jason, I miss him too" Marvin let out a shaky breath, tears continued to role down his cheeks. He rubbed Jason's back as he cried. "He loved you so much you know that right" Marvin said softly. Jason bit his lip and hugged his dad tightly.

Marvin held jason as he comforted him until they both fell asleep.

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Y'all I'm so sorry for this one low key, kinda a rant chapter cause it's depression time ✨

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