stuck in your love cycle (on break)

19: family time

Authors note: Honestly y'all are so nice to me, i love it here lol, but I decided to drop a couple more chapters then put out the other book because I have a few ideas for this book and yall be quick asf lmao. This chapter is giving very much chill vibes cause trust me y'all gon need it for the next few chapters. It's gonna be 4 more chapters and 1 social media one that i hopefully finish tomorrow. Then i'll go on break for this book and drop the other one.

Samaria POV 

The next morning 

I wake up and feel around the bed for toosii or yoma but neither of them are there. I get up and go into the bathroom seeing a note on the mirror reading "get dressed with our going out for breakfast, AS A FAMILY" I sigh and call crystal.

"hey hey girl" she says smiling in the camera but it drops once she notices that sam was frowning.

"what's wrong baby" she asks sitting the camera down. 

"toosii wants to get back together, and yes i love him and i'm in love with her but I never really felt this much pain or hurt with anyone, i never been put in the much danger because of anyone . Not even my parents put me in danger and that's saying something." i rant as I feel a tear run down my face.

"I understand what your saying, but every relationship goes through things it's about if you are gonna take it or leave, and he loves you sooo much girl . You can see it . So why not give him another chance." Crystal says making me wipe my tears and smile.

"your right okay, i gotta go get ready now thank you, I love you soo much" I say kissing the camera as she does it back and we hang up.

I turn my music on and hop in the shower.

Good day in my mind, safe to take a step out
Get some air now, let your edge out
Too soon, I spoke, you be heavy in my mind
Can you get the heck out?
I need rest now, got me bummed out
You so, you so, you, baby, baby, babe
I've been on my empty mind shitI try to keep from losin' the rest of me
I worry that I wasted the best of me on you, baby
You don't care
Said, not tryna be a nuisance, it's just urgent
Tryna make sense of loose change
Got me a war in my mind
Gotta let go of weight, can't keep what's holding me
Choose to watch
While the world break up and fall on meAll the while, I'll await my armored fate with a smile
Still wanna try, still believe in (good days)
Good days, always (good days)
Always inside (always in my mind, always in my mind, mind)
Good day living in my mindTell me I'm not my fears, my limitations
I disappear, if you let me
Feeling like (on your own)
Feeling like Jericho
Feeling like Job when he lost his shit
Gotta hold my own, my cross to bear alone, I
Ooh, paid a deal, way to kill the mood
Know you like that shit, yeah, groovy baby, baby
Heavy on my empty mind shitI gotta keep from losin' the rest of me (losin' the rest of me)
Still worry that I wasted the best of me on you, babe
You don't care
Said, not tryna be a nuisance, it's just urgent (it's urgent)
Tryna make sense of loose change
Got me a war in my mind (my mind)
Gotta let go of weight, can't keep what's holding me
Choose to watch
While the world break up and fall on meAll the while, I'll await my armored fate with a smile
Still wanna try, still believe in (good days, good days on my mind)
good days (good days on my mind)
Always sunny inside (always in my mind, always in my mind, mind)
Good day living in my mindGotta get right, tryna free my mind before the end of the world
I don't miss no ex, I don't miss no text
I just choose not to respond
I don't regret, just pretend shit never happened
Half of us layin' waste to our youth, is in the present
Half of us chasin' fountains of youth and it's in the present nowAlways in my mind, always in my mind, mind
You've been making me feel like I'm
Always in my mind, always in my mind, mind