Jisoo's POV
Cold air rushes through my open window here in my room at this night time. I've been crying for almost 3 hours now.
Why?
Because Lisa and I broke up earlier in the restaurant where we used to date. The scenario last time still stuck on my head,and every time i remember it my tears will automatically fall on my cheeks.
flashback.
Lisa invited me to meet up with her in our favorite spot. We don't have quality time together ever since she got her new job. I get it,she was busy. So busy that she can't even call nor text me. But it's perfectly fine with me because i have my own job as well.
I was so excited to the point that i can't even choose what should i wear. But in the end i choose this red dress with matching white sandals.
Lisa won't pick me up this time since her car have a problem so i'll just drive my own car instead. She told me she will get there first and waiting for me.
30 minutes later i arrived at the restaurant. And there she is looking so gorgeous as always waiting for me. I enter the restaurant and when she saw me she didn't even smile or greet me.
Is there something wrong?
"Hi babe" I greeted her with a hug but she didn't hug me back.
I took a seat in front of her,she wasn't even talking to me. I didn't do anything wrong,but why is she like this?
"Anything wrong Lisa?" I asked. She took a breath before she spoke.
"Look Jisoo i'm not here for a date" My heart sank on what she said "I have to tell you something"
And here's one of the moment i'm scared of. But i just shrugged it off because maybe she will told me about something job related,she will go abroad for her job or something?
"What is it babe?" I took the glass of water and drink to lessen my nervousness.
"I know you'll gonna hate me after this,and i'm sorry but..." She paused and i signal her to continue.
"L-let's break up" After she said this words everything in here stopped. "I met this girl from my job. We've been dating for about 2 months now"
I accidentally dropped the glass of water,glass shattered on the white cloth and everybody here inside look on us.
"W-what?" I asked still processing if i heard it right.
Is she really breaking up with me? After 4 years being in a relationship with me? She's not serious right?
"You heard me Jisoo. I'm breaking up with you,i already fell in love with someone. I-i... i'm sorry Jisoo,i promise there's nothing wrong with you. You're so amazing to the point of perfection. It's me who have-"
"You really love that girl?" I cut her off,i can't help it anymore but to asked. And she nodded.
A drop of tear fell down on my cheeks and i immediately wipe it away.
"Uhm..." I sadly chuckled. "I guess i can't do something about that anymore. I mean look at you,you say it yourself that you're already in love with that girl after 4 years of being in a relationship with me. I-i want to stop you but... are you happy with that girl?"
"Yeah"
"Okay then. It's fine for me Lisa,it's not like i don't care. I just don't want to force you to stay with me because i know you won't be happy with me Lisa i just want you to be happy even if i'm not the reason on it. From now on..."
While i'm saying those words i just stayed staring at her because i know i won't see this person in front of me again. I won't see the person who i used to love and the person who used to love me.
"I'm letting you go my love" 6 words but seems hundreds millions of knives
hits my heart. It hurts a lot.
"Lisa can i hug you for the last time please?" I asked and she immediately stand up from her chair. I need to feel her embrace for the last,i won't be able to feel this forever i'm sure.
She hugged me tight,and squeeze me to her body. She burried her face on my neck while she's mumbling apology after apology. I run my fingers through her hair and rubbing her back.
"Lisa it's fine" What i fuckin' lie.
It was supposed to be 'Lisa it hurts'
"Don't cry baby. I just want you to be happy okay?"
"But you're hurting because of my happiness" Her voice cracked.
"Yeah that's right but it's fine Lisa. Remember what i said before "all i want is you to be happy even if it goes to the point that i'll be hurting" Lisa i mean it wholeheartedly. So stop crying now and go to your new girl"
"No let's stay like this for awhile"
'Lisa you're hurting me more. Please let go of this hug. My heart is hurting my love.'
But why can't i let go?
We stayed like this for straight 5 minutes,we're both crying and not caring about the people around us. I'm the first who broke the hug to wipe her tears away,i kissed her forehead and say
"I'm setting you free my love"
-end of flashback
I lost Lisa.
Lisa the love of my life,my bestfriend,the person who i consider to be my soulmate. But what can i do? She was completely in love with someone already.
In our story i lost. But it's fine as long as she's happy i'm happy as well.
I know i can move on from this,but for now let me cry.
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a/n: i cried wth? How's my angst? T_T
