untitled: trixie and katya

chapter twenty

tw mentions of rape, self harm, and violence, dont read if these trigger you and if anyone ever needs to talk feel free to  message me :)

now onto the story

katyas pov

we got into the car and i looked over at trixie, who could barely keep her composure, "im not letting you go again, and mark my words trix, if anyone ever lies a finger on you again i will kill them."

"i cant believe i did this to myself katya, i-"

"no trixie listen to me, none if this is your fault, david, that guy, NONE OF IT, you are worth so much more than all of this and i really hope you can realize that, or someday someone can help you realize that. you are one of the strongest people, if not the strongest person i know, and you are beyond beautiful, so smart, so fucking talented, you are the closest thing to perfect ive ever seen, dont let anyone make you feel any different okay?" i reached over and wiped the tears that streamed down her face.

"i feel so disgusting, how could anyone ever love me? i have so much baggage and so many fucking issues and im so stupid katya so fucking stupid," she began to scratch at the scars on her wrists.

i reached over and place her hand in mine, "trixie you are far from stupid. you got dealt a bad hand in life, and you shouldnt let that make you lesser of a person. a 20 dollar bill with some wear and tear is still 20 bucks. and trust me you are worth more than any dollar amount i can think of. and how about we get your mind off it? you can go shower and slip into something more comfy and i still have some food left, and my movie offer is still up..."

she wiped her tears again and smiled, "thank you katya, id really like that."

"a smile! ladies and gentlemen we have a smile!"

she began to giggle, "youre so stupid."

the rest of the car ride was rather quiet, i tried to crack a few jokes in hope to keep trixie's energies up, but i could tell she was in so much pain. i wasnt lying when i said i never wanted to leave her again. i wish i could hug all the pain away. i wish i could erase all the bad memories and remind her each and every day how absolutely fucking great she is. im hurting for her.

as we drove up to the apartment trixie sighed.

"you okay love?" i squeezed her hand.

"i just feel like this is only the beginning, that memory will haunt me forever."

i turned in her direction and pushed the hair behind her ear, "ill be here every step of the way, i promise."

we got out of the car and headed to trixies room.

"i dont have the motivation to bathe but i literally feel disgusting."

"i think it would be good for you to at least take a quick shower."

"katya, im kind of embarrassed to ask this but do you think maybe you could come sit with me? i really dont want to be alone tonight."

"no need to be embarrassed, of course ill come sit with you."

i grabbed trixie's clothes and placed them beside her on the bed. she pouted at me.

"whats wrong?"

she layed down and lifted her feet into the air.

i immediately laughed and understood what she wanted, "you are such a big baby."

i began to take off her heels gently.

"are you ready now drama queen?"

she smiled and grabbed me by the hand. we began skipping to the bathroom. as we walked into the bathroom i closed the door and sat against it. trixie leaned over and turned on the water. she looked over at me and began to unzip her dress.