untitled: trixie and katya

chapter twenty eight

katyas pov

of all the restraunts in LA, trixie decided on chipotle. she got her usual, and chose to take it to go.

"you dont wanna sit and eat, love?" i looked over at her.

"lets go on a picnic, you did say i could do whatever i wanted right?" she smiled up at me.

i pulled her into a side hug and kissed her forehead, "i think thats a great idea."

we grabbed our food and i fixed our drinks.

"want to go to the beach? or to the park?" i held open the door for her.

"park please, dont want any sand in my burrito," she laughed.

as we pulled up to the park, i got out of my car and grabbed the blanket i always keep for emergencies like this. we walked over to a spot near a tree and set up our meals.

"so, how are you feeling?" i sat down across from trixie.

"im really improving, i guess i just had to hit rock bottom. i learned alot, its just all going to take time."

"trix," i reached over and grabbed her hand, "im extremely proud of you. i know this must be so hard for you, but you are a fighter, and im really just inspired by how strong you are."

"give yourself some credit too kat, without you i wouldnt be here, you have been here through it all and have been so supportive, which is why i sort of have a confession."

i pulled my hand away from hers, "what is it?"

"um..- at the hospital i was kinda given some news..."

"okay..?"

"im... im um-," she gestured to her stomach, "pregnant."

i began to feel anger. anger that he had done this to her and jealousy. I knew the feelings were wrong, but i couldnt help it. As much as i didnt want to admit it i wanted trixie all to myself, i wanted to shield her away from it all.

"Wow, trix, i dont even know what to say, how do you feel about that?"

Tears began to stream down her face, "katya, im fucking terrified... i never wanted to be a mother, i dont know what im going to do, i tried to kill myself a few weeks ago, do you think im fit to be a mother? Dont answer that, because guess what? IM NOT!" She began to sob.

I ran over to her and wrapped my arms around her, "hey, hey listen to my voice, its all going to be okay. this may not have been the most ideal situation, but you can get through this, we can get through this, who knows trix? Maybe this is a blessing in disguise? I know it may not seem like it and the circumstances are obviously not the best, but maybe this will give you purpose," i paused, wiping her tears away, "and trix, im not going anywhere, i will help you witht his in every way that i can."

She sniffled then looked up into my eyes, "youre serious? Youd do that for me?"

"if this kid is even a tenth as great as you, it would be my pleasure, you are pretty much my best friend, and id go to the ends of the world for you. Im here through it all."

She hugged me as tight as she could, and then wiped her tears and nose, "this poor kid is in for a treat," we both laughed.

"Now eat your food, its going to get cold," i grabbed her burrito and handed it to her.

She smiled at me, "you are just so.."

"What? What?" I smiled back.

"Nothing, i just like you."

we both errupted into laughter.