My Lost Love

•|| SIX ||•

•|| Feelings ||•

My life turn upside down, just after seeing those pictures. I still felt pain in my heart. I don't know why but after seeing his picture I recall everything. Which I don't want too.

My heart is throbbing so badly. His face is coming in front of my eyes again and again. I don't know that after all these years, my heart wants to see him again.

I control my emotions and try hard to not think about him. And think further for my daughter. My life.

Sidhhi is my everything, I can't bear anything if anything will happen to her. After that incident, how I will go to Aunties flat. What if I accidentally met him.

Now I know that he lives there and a month ago when Monu said his dad at home. I don't know how can I handle all this. I have to shrug those thoughts. He's living happily and I don't want an interruption in my life too.

I went to Siddhi's room and saw she was studying. Recently I started her studies again because schools are going to reopen.

Luckily Her old school have a nearby branch hear and I already talked to the principal about her transfer. She is so happy after hearing about her school thing and also for making new friends.

Her old school is very nice but I got many problems to takes admission to her. Because of the father name. So in last Jay and Mahhi too care and applied to as Guardian.

They did a lot for me and my baby. I don't know how can I repay them. Jay and Mahhi don't like whenever I talk about to repay. They always scolded me.

It's late and I didn't wake her up. So I prepare breakfast already and about to go when she came.

"Mumma, why didn't you wake me up?"... Sidhhi said.

" Aw my baby, come here,"... I call her.

She came and I make her sit on my lap.
She hugs me and while I caress her head and move her hair from her face.

"Mumma, I promised Monu that today I will play with him at his home,".... She told me.

" What?.. Um- I mean baby, why? Call him to here,"... I said because from now on I try to avoid going there.

"But, Mumma"... She tries to say but I interrupted.

"No baby, wait I will call Auntie and ask her to came, okay?"... When I said that she just nod and left for her room.

I know she angry because she wants to go there but I can not let her. and I don't know why?

I dial the aunties mobile number and wait for until she did not pick up the phone.

"Namaste, Auntie Good Morning,"... I said with little nervousness,

"Good Morning Sania,"... Auntie said.

"Auntie Siddhi promised Monu to play and study, so I call to for asking to come with him, ... Um-I also prepared the breakfast already,"... I said.