Unbreakable

FOUR: Eros

Words evade me

As hard as I try to hold them

To let them rest on my tongue

To hear their sounds resonate from my lips

I stay mute

I've become somewhat obsessed with words

I read dictionaries and fill my head with words I will never use

But would one day like to say like:

Samota

Meltem

Forelsket

Extremely useless words that just sound pretty

I wish I could whisper them while I try to fall asleep at night

Let the darkness hold and consider each and every word

Before letting them disolve into the air

But that's all just a dream

I was born without vocal chords, therfore I cannot speak

But I can hear many things

Sometimes if I press my ear to the dirt I can hear whispers

Hard to make out words fluttering up from the ground

Other times I pretend to smell flowers when I walk past them

But really I'm trying to listen to them sing

A long time ago my mom found me in our meager yard

My ear pressed into the dirt

I could almost make out the words

But my mom picked me up

And warned me that bugs would crawl into my ears

I never got a chance to try to listen again

But that day I could have swore I heard the same word repeated over and over

Son.