𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕤𝕚𝕔𝕜 𝔹𝕠𝕪𝕤 • seodo/Hodo

Prologe

Just close your eyes, the sun is going down. You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now. Come morning light. You and I'll be safe and sound.

Seohos POV.

I wiped my sweaty hands at the sides of my oversized hoodie as I open the door of the coffee shop. I told Hwanwoong and Geonhak to go ahead because my boyfriend texted me to go to the coffee shop next to our college.

Everyone could tell I was nervous and maybe a bit scared about what's going to happen now. My stomach felt like it turned upside down when I saw the text and right now I feel like I need to puke. Maybe I'm overreacting but how do you turn negative thoughts off?

"Come after class to Berries. We have to talk." that was what he wrote.
The first thing that comes to someone's mind when they hear "we have to talk" is a break-up.

But he wouldn't do that right?
We love each other and have been in a relationship for two years now.
We started dating after a school project we were assigned to. It was quite romantic at that time but lately, things seemed to change. 
Very cliched if you ask my friends but I love our little love story.

As I look through the room I finally see him sitting in our usual corner. But his expression makes the bad thoughts come back. He frowns, eyes fixed on his phone with a cold stare. I could feel the tensed atmosphere surrounding him 

I sat down right in front of him.
After some time of silence between us, he looks up into my face.

"I....thought about everything and... I know you're going to hate me after this but I feel like I should tell you because I can't keep it to myself anymore and-"

"Please come to the point." I accidentally cut his words. I really need to calm down  I thought.

"Let's break up" Jiwoo muttered.

"Excuse me what?" I laughed nervously, hoping I didn't hear him right.

" I don't think we're meant to be you know? I mean we are dating for what? Two years? And still, you don't trust me enough to-"

"Wait. You're not going to break up with me just because I don't want you to fuck me after two years?...you do know that I'm not that kind of person and I just don't want to rush things. You were the one telling me "I will wait for you until you're ready" so that was just to sound sweet and caring?" My face started to heat up as I got more insecure on the inside but mad at the outside. 

"We didn't even really kiss! I am a man, I have desires. You can't give me what I need, so I have to move on." he said angrily.

"We did kiss but I don't know why those things are more important to you than my feelings. We could've talked about it without breaking up." I snapped back.

"I just don't want to waste more money and time on someone I don't love."

At that moment I feel my heart breaking in my chest. It hurts so much that I nearly broke into tears.  I swallowed down my tears and packed my stuff.

" You know what? Stay away from me as far as you can. I don't want your text messages, I don't want to see or hear you and now fucking leave my life. Thanks for wasting my time and using me like a toy. I won't beg you to stay or crawl back to you if I feel lonely. Don't worry!" I accidentally raised my voice.  With the attention of all the customers in this shop, I could feel their eyes burn into my skin.
It was embarrassing for me. I hate to show bad emotions or crying in public...

I didn't know what else to do so I left the shop as fast as I can and ran where ever my steps lead me to.

Turns out 'where ever' is my Dorm.