Take you and make you mine- A One Direction Fanfic [BoyxBoy]

ChApTeR nInEtEeN: Paper Dolls

[A/N] Holy Actual crap! okay guys, its been two years and im back! now i would first like to apologize and say im so so so sooooo sorry for not really informing everyone on what happened, where i was and all that stuff. Basically since i was 12 i had been suffering with anxiety, depression, panic attacks and all that good stuff. I needed help for so long, and really so much crap had been going on i needed to take a break from the whole wattpad thing and just focus on getting better. Currently im so much better than before, im happy, not self harming anymore, no longer suicidal and im just so much better. THANK YOU everyone who stayed and commented and didnt unfollow i love all of you so incredibly much. I love all of you, appriciate everyone. Thank you so much for understanding, i hope no one forgot about this book and still reads it. I worked my ass off tonight, i wrote at 1am and it never saved, wrote again at 2 and the same thing happened, its 3:30am and im starting again. please enjoy! its been a long time <3

Song: I just died in your arms Bastille :) x

Dedicated to @Sanna00p because ur a cutie :* :) x

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Louis POV

My eyes fluttered open, streams of white blinding sunlight being the first thing I saw. My eyes settled on the white ceiling above and instantly I became aware of the piercing pain in my temples, feeling like my brain was two sizes too big, the pressure in my skull making me feel like my head was about to explode

“God damn” I grumbled, rubbing my temples with delicate movements, brow furrowed as I sighed deeply.

Something felt different, this surely wasn’t my room, this wasn’t my bed either, this bed was warm, comforting and I could snuggle into the blankets and stay there for ages.

The night before was a complete blur, memories hazy and nothing I really could recall was certain. The last thing I could distinctly remember was dancing with Liam, our sweaty bodies pressed together, moving in sync to the music that was blasted throughout the house, the smell of alcohol and cigarettes clear.

Now becoming aware of my twisting upset stomach the reason for the lack of memory was evidently caused by my assumption of alcohol. My whole head was a mess, flashes from the night before popping into my mind and- suddenly I felt a movement beside me.

Oh no, oh god no. I didn’t… did I? I really hope I didn’t…. slowly my eyes wandered across the white bed sheets, messy and tousled bed sheets that were barely covering the figure beside me and- it was Liam. His hair a complete mess, love bites covering his neck… chest… stomach… all the way to his hips and thankfully that was where the blankets began to cover some skin.

I felt my stomach drop, the realization that we were both naked now settling in. “Oh… oh no” I mumbled as I quickly scrambled out of the bed although making sure to not wake Liam. This was a huge mistake, I never wanted this to happen, this is what happened the last time and- oh god no.

My eyes began to water, covering my mouth as I began to breathe heavily, trying my hardest to find my belongings, clothes, phone, whatever I could I just wanted out of there. Eventually amongst all the mess I managed to find my clothes, smelling of sweat and alcohol, I slipped them on despite the fact.

This couldn’t have happened, no this was a huge mistake, I never ever wanted this to happen, or at least so soon- how did this even happen I could barely remember. Liam had used me- used me like the one before and the one before that- that’s all anyone ever wants me for.

I’m like a paper doll, I get toyed with and passed around, and everyone gets a turn with me don’t they? Everyone gets bored eventually as well, but still they manage to damage me, the paper doll, leaving marks and wrinkles and scars.

Suddenly I was dashing out of the room, scrambling down the stairs and out the door into the cold winter air, no idea where I was going, I really just wanted to get away.  My eyes were so filled with tears even if I knew where I wanted to go my vision was so blurred it would be impossible to navigate towards my destination. But despite the facts I ran, ran so fast not even the painfully cold air filling my lungs could slow me down.

I found myself in a park minutes later, a park filled with trees and birds. A lake was frozen over as well. By now I was out of breath, leaning against a tree, tears rolling down my cheeks.

Lips trembling, hands shaking I could barely wrap my head around anything. What had we done last night? I had no clue. But it had been more than I ever intended. These sorts of things only mess things up, complicate things so easily and then everything just falls apart… or I do, either way something falls apart.

Pain, pain was all I felt, and I must have sat there for hours, because the next time I looked up the icicles on the trees were melting slowly and the air that had been so painfully cold before was now almost comforting, the sun’s rays beating down on me keeping me somewhat warm in the winter snow. I had gotten multiple missed calls, texts, all from Liam but why would he be calling me?

He got what he had wanted right? He managed to get me drunk, get me naked, get me to do whatever but this time I woke up with someone and ran before I was the one alone. I still ended up alone though… alone in a park, but alone in a park was better than alone naked in a bed.

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I hope you enjoyed!  i know it was short, very short and not as well written as i would haver liked but its currently 4am and i just wanted to finish it up and publish it. The upcoming chapters will surely be more lengthly and detailed:)

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