Take you and make you mine- A One Direction Fanfic [BoyxBoy]

ChApTeR FoUrTeEn: Explaining

[A/N] IM SORRY! I havent uploaded in forever i know, im sorry :( i hate how school takes up so much writing time, if i could ditch school i would guys!:) xxxAnywhore im still Happy that this book is popular! But since you guys like this book, i think you might like my new one that i worked extra hard one, its a Lirry one, and its a very dramatic discriptive book! Please please please please read it and comment? :) xxx please? I promis you'll enjoy it :D

The song i chose was Fix you by Coldplay, im not sure if i've already chosen this song before but i thought it suited this chapter.

The picture over there is funny, i mean just look at how in sync they are! Lol like they are both walking with the same foot behind, same hand fixing hair, same hand down, both looking to the ground, wtf! :P

Dedicated to @LiveLoveNiallerxx cause her comment made me laugh because it was deep :3 Anyways, uinti i get the ammount of reads im satisfied with on my new Lirry book (Love Heals all wounds) i wont stop bugging you about it every update! so GO READ IT!:)

Love you all! Thanks for reading babes!:)

*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^ 

Harry's POV

It's been two days now, since I saw what Zayn did to himself, and honestly im worried as hell, I don't even know why he did it, and obviously there's something wrong if he did that to himself, people just don't do those things for no reason. I have been trying so hard not to ask Zayn about the cuts because I don't want him to feel uncomfortable, but I cant help but wonder, and I keep on wanting to check if there's any more since the last time I saw his wrist.

I'm so scared for Zayn, I just want to help him with what's wrong, I really want to know so I can make it better. Zayn's the first real boyfriend I've ever had, and he's the best thing ever, I cant help but worry.

The bell rang and I shot up from my seat bolting out of the class into the hallways. I walked around, eyes searching for Zayn, I just want to be with him all the time now, I want to make sure he is alright. After about three minutes of searching for him I finally saw him coming out of a classroom and walking to his locker right near him. I smiled and jogged up behind him, snaking my arms around his waist, causing him to turn around and grin when he saw me. "Hey baby" I greeted, arms still resting on his hips.

"Hey Haz" Zayn answered back and leaned in to share a short kiss on the lips, myself just enjoying the feeling of his soft ones on mine. I'm not sure if anyone really saw us kiss, since no one said or did anything. Once breaking apart I smiled and trailed my hand down Zayn's arm to hold hands with him.

"So, how was class?" I asked while we went to go walk to our usual spot where we sat during free periods, that tree where I admitted I was gay to Zayn.

"Erm, good I guess" Zayn shrugged, not in a very good mood either. I frowned and bit my lip, wanting to make him happy again.

"Oh! Well...At least there's only a little bit of school left before Christmas break eh?" I attempted to lighten the mood slightly, but nothing was done as Zayn just shrugged again, keeping quiet to himself not talking.

We finally got outside into the cold winter air, I leaned into Zayn's body more while walking, just wanting to keep warm from him. Zayn wrapped his arm around me, and hugged me closer, kissing my head making me blush.

We both sat down near the tree, Zayn and I sitting beside each other closely, getting warmth off of the others body. Neither of us were saying a thing, no matter how much I just wanted to ask him about his cuts, I couldn't because I knew he would get upset, he would just tell me when he's ready I guess...but what if he's never ready? What if he never says a word then one day hurts himself really bad, I would feel so guilty. I don't know what to do.

My eyes just drifted down, to where mine and Zayn's hands were linked together tightly, and soon my eyes were starring at Zayn's wrist, I wanted to look away, incase he caught me, but I wanted to know why he did that, and why he was so sad. I felt Zayn tense, and I looked up to see him looking at me, I immediately looked away from our hands. "Sorry" I mumbled, looking down at my lap.

"Its okay...I understand if you want to know" Zayn said hesitantly, gripping onto my hand more firmly.

"I want to know, but...if you're not ready to tell me yet...I get it" I reassured, stroking my thumb over his knuckles. Zayn sighed and looked down to the snow covered grass, the heads of the frozen green's just poking up above the fluffy snow, it rarely snowed in London, and if it did the snow never stayed for long.

"I can tell you, you're my boyfriend, you deserve to know..." Zayn sighed and leaned his head on my shoulder.

"Okay, go ahead then. Im listening babe" Zayn lifted his head and moved to sit ahead of me, taking my hands in his and biting his lip. He drew in a deep breath then looked at me, and started to speak.

"When I tell you, you cant get scared, or freak out...or get mad..." Zayn whispered, I saw small tears welling up in his eyes, the second time I've seen that in his perfect golden brown orbs, and it kills me just as much as it did the first time.  I nodded slowly and he breathed In again blinking back his tears.

"I...I cut myself only sometimes, because I get.... abused...by my dad" He paused and my heart shattered. "He...he abuses me cause I'm gay, and he never used to be like this...he never was this cruel." His voice broke in between his words, making him look away from me as more tears started to brim his beautiful eyes.

"He only got like this after my Mum and two sisters died in a car crash last year... He went crazy Haz, he turned into a alcoholic, he hates me, and he hates my little sister, and...you...have no idea, how many times I wanted to kill myself, because he is like hell, calling me a man whore, telling me I'm a life form of a sin, telling me im going to hell, telling me to die...but I cant do that...I cant kill myself. I cant do that to Safaa, I cant do that to my sister..." His tears were falling down his face, landing on his pants and creating paint-splattered dots all over. I bit back my tears, wanting to be strong for him, but I couldn't as one tear streamed down my cheek.

"Zaynie...Oh baby you cant stay there" I whispered, clutching his hand tight, Zayn was still looking down, and looked up to make eye contact with me, his lip still captured between his teeth, his eye's red from the tears he was shedding, his cheeks pink from the cold air around us.

"Babe, I have no choice, I don't have enough money to move, we are broke since my dad uses all the money on alcohol" Zayn reasoned, shaking his head.

"Then move in with me! My mum would be fine with it! We can take in Safaa too! If she's related to you she has to be just as beautiful and nice" I tried to convince, but Zayn just shook his head in protest again.

"No, that would be using you, taking advantage of you, I cant do that." He declined; I huffed and bit on my lip frustrated. I care about Zayn so much, and he doesn't want my help and I don't know why. I just want to help him.

"Please? I just want to help you! You cant live like that! What if he really hurts you one day? What if that happens?" I asked, looking at him with sad eyes, Zayn breathed in shakily and weak, closing his eyes and tilting his head down.

"I...I don't know Harry...but I know I need to keep Safaa safe, and I cant use you to my benefits, I don't feel right doing that...but I promise you, if I ever really need you, anytime...I'll call you, I'll talk to you, and you can help me, okay?" Zayn smiled sadly looking back up to me with his watery eye's, I nodded softly, wanting to argue with that but just kept to myself.

"Im glad you understand babe... Im glad I have you" Zayn whispered and pulled me in for a warm hug, nuzzling his head in my neck; feeling his eye lashed flutter against my neck along with his lips brushing over my skin making me pull him in closer, resting my hand on the back of his head and kissing the top of it softly.

"Im glad I have you too Zaynie" I whispered back.

**************

Comment!:) AND GO READ LOVE HEALS ALL WOUNDS! XD