Childhood Friendship

2.2 - Cravings

~~~Liam's POV~~~

“I'm so tired. I could not sleep last night.” I thought while lying on my bed at around 12 in the afternoon.

“I just can't believe I didn't do anything. I just kissed her? Oh god, seriously?”

~~~flashback~~~

I carried Emma to her room. Laid her on the bed and wrapped her in a blanket. I could not help but admire her cute baby face.

“What are you doing to me Emma?” I said while caressing her wet eye lashes with my thumb. I then kissed her eyes and whispered “I'm leaving now.”

I wanted her to stop me. But realized that it's just a thing that happens in movies when I was out of her house. I came home and could not stop thinking about Emma.

And the fact that I kissed her eyes when I could have actually kissed her on lips was killing me. I didn't even know when the sun rose. It was morning but I still could not get Emma out of my head.

~~~flashback ends~~~

All these feelings were so different. I've never had feelings for someone. And didn't wanna admit that I had fallen for Emma.

I blocked her. Because I didn't want to believe anything.

“You've stayed with her for years. This is normal. Just wait for a day or two.” I said this to myself and tried to forget about it.

The next day I got almost 15 calls from Emma. But I did not answer. After a few days there was a party at Lia's farm house.

I sat with my gang which had maximum girls. Then I saw Emma walking up to me and wave at me. That made me wanna hug her but I could not.

I stood up and pulled her away from my friends. I could feel that she was getting hurt but I had to do that. I took her to the backside of the kitchen.

I knew this place as Lia brought me here once to show some plant. I let go of Emma's arm. But had left a mark.

I didn't know I had held her so tight. Before I could say something, she asked “Why am I not able to contact you?”

That question reminded me that I have to be strong and tough. So I said “I've brought you here. Let me speak. You will get a chance later.”

She was still smiling which made my hurt ache. “I don't want you to talk to me in front of anyone. Actually, you know what? Stop contacting me from now on. I don't even want to talk to you. How did I spend all these years with you. I should have never given you attention. Now look what you have done. You bitch.” I shouted.

I didn't realize what I was saying. I'm sure she didn't understand anything. All she would have understood was that I didn't want to contact her.

I saw that her eyes were getting watery. Before that thing could effect me, I left her alone. And hid behind a wall.

She waited for a few seconds and fell to the ground with her hands on her face and elbows on her knees. She was crying really hard. And I could do nothing but feel guilty.

I could not look at her anymore. But still stayed there. The sound of her soft sobs stopped after what felt like forever.

She stood up and started walking. I was behind her. Without letting her know. She was roaming in the same area again and again.

Maybe she was lost. I didn't know she had not seen this area before. She then took her phone out and called someone. It was not me as my phone was in my pocket and it was not vibrating.

She called someone again. And the person picked up. She told that person she was lost and then described the place.

I saw Brian, Emma's classmate and Lia's good friend, coming our away after about 10 mins. They were walking back to the main building and were talking about something but I could not here. As Emma saw the main building, she said something and was about to run away but Brian held her hand and pulled her a little closer.

He then said “Emma, I like you. I really really like. Will you be my girlfriend?” I read his lips. I guessed this is what he said.

I wanted to punch him but Emma smiled at him and held his hand with the other free hand. I could not take it anymore and left. I saw Lia with her friends.

I grabbed her waist and pulled her towards me and started to kiss her. She was kissing me back. “You're wild.” she said between the kiss as the kiss was rough and I was angry.

Lia is a slut. She has fucked so many unknown guys. Everyone around us was cheering and I had to smile at her.

“Tomorrow. My place. 5 o'clock.” I whispered. She nodded. After some time I saw that Emma was leaving with her friends.

I had to make sure she reaches home safe. And it was 9pm already. This was the first time she was out at this hour without me.

So I followed them with my car. They stopped and Emma went to a shop. I was still in the car.

Once she left I stepped out and went to the same shop. And after buying a few things that were not even necessary I asked the shopkeeper “Excuse me, could you tell what the girl in the light blue sleeveless sweater bought?”

“A pair of couple rings. Most expensive one. Young people these days just waste their parents money on these shitty things. Our times were the best. This is all bullshit.” the shopkeeper said a lot of things but all I heard was a pair of couple rings.

All sorts of questions were coming into my mind. “Was my guess correct?” “Did she accept him?” “Are they in a relationship now?” “Is it because of me?”. The first thing I did the next morning was called Brian to the nearest park.

I didn't beat him. I just threatened him and didn't listen to anything he was saying. I was alone as my mom does not stay with us, she has a job because of which she has to change her city every 6 months.

My dad is a scientist and recently he's been working on an important project and usually stays out for 2-3 days. Noah was going to Emma and Caden's grandmother's house. I knew that our house will be empty for another two days at least.

That is why I had called Lia. That slut came exactly at 5 o'clock. I opened the door and we started kissing.

I broke the kiss and called her inside. She looked desperate. Fucking whore.

She sat on the sofa and I gave her water. She drank some water and poured the rest on herself. She was wearing white shirt.

And her black bra was clearly visible. “Oh shit. I think I should remove this.” she said while taking it off. She took her bra off as well.

She then made me sit on the sofa and sat on top of me. We started kissing. We stripped and I carried her to my bedroom.

We had not broken the kiss yet. I placed her on the bed and hovered on top of her. And we had sex.

One thing that was irritating me was that I was imagining Emma all the time I was fucking Lia. We wore our clothes. I was still thinking about Emma.

“I think I should just accept it. Or maybe not. But this has never happened before. But who knows this feeling will go away after a few days.” I was confused.

I heard the door bell. I opened the door. Even after what I did to her previous night, Emma was standing in front of my house with that bright smile I've always loved.

Her smile was something I didn't know I craved for. I love her smile. I love her cuteness.

I love her surprising me by coming to my house. I love her. I love you Emma.

All my doubts had gone away after looking at her. I needed her. I could not help but smile at her.

She looked beautiful. I didn't care about what she was wearing. Her not-too-tight-not-too-loose white sweater was way better that Lia's white shirt.

She had blue denim jeans on. With white sneakers, two bags and one high pony. I was busy admiring Emma.

Just then Lia from inside the house said “Liam, I'm going home now. I'd love to come again tomorrow.”

Oh shit. How will I explain it to Emma? It's not what it like looks like. I mean it is. But Emma?

“Lia” Emma shouted.