"you actually did it"

chapter 9

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️- this chapter will mostly be abuse so if that makes u feel uncomfortable skip to chapter 10 thank you:)

Mark unlocked the front door only to find his father standing right there. "Hey son" mark looked closer, despite the fact that it was pitch dark outside and the only light in the house was the kitchen light, mark saw micheal holding something.... it was a bat.

Mark tried to make a run for it but was kicked down with something metal, it was a metal bat. "Oh shit.. dont even fight back you know your going to lose" mark said in his thoughts. He just sat there ready to be beat up and he knew it was going to come. "Where were you" "i was at the beach" mark said about to be in tears. "With who?" "No one..." "LIAR I SAW YOU WITH A GIRL WHO IS SHE" "NO ONE DAD" "tell me who she is" micheals voice was piercing marks ear drums. "I said no one" marks voice was stiff, he didnt want to scream anymore, he gave up. Micheal lifted up the bat and lifted marks chin with it, "tell me. who she is." Mark sat there shaking not being able to form a sentence, until he felt the metal swing at him across the chest. Mark screamed in pain, "shut up you piece of shit, now like i asked. who is she". "A GIRL FROM MY SCHOOL" mark yelled crying from pain, micheal looked at mark and scoffed, rolling his eyes. "You stupid, how about instead of worrying about a dumb girl worry about your grades" "shes not dumb dad" mark said lips quivering trying to hold in his pain. "All females are dumb, how about you go end up like your mother" this really hurt mark, his father had went to far. Mark got up and spat blood coming out with it and said "fuck you" he walked up to his room and started crying.

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️- panic attack, self harm

He got to his bathroom and fell to the ground, hugging his knees up to his chest that was pulsing in agony. He couldnt breath the walls were closing in, his breathing started to fasten not being able to keep up with his breathing he couldnt breathe. Everything was small the ground felt like a black hole, his chest was going up and down soon it was black. He had passed out, mark woke up still on the cold bathroom floor he slid up against the wall for support and started crying. Trying to maintain his breathing, knowing that or else his chest would hurt and that would lead to another panic attack. Than he saw the blade.

Mark got up and groaning because his chest was aching from that dumb bat. He got up eventually still on the walls for support, he made his way to the blade and did the unthinkable. A few minutes had pasted and his tears were rolling down his cheeks and onto his wrists making them sting. Going to the drawer he got some bandages and covered up the bleeding cuts than cleaned everything up along with washing his face. He changed out of his rain clothes and went to bed staring into space. Thought of mom.... he missed his mom, if only she hadnt left him than maybe this wouldve been somewhat better. Mark fell asleep crying, and had a dream.

"Mark" her mother yelled, than he saw baby mark about 10 years old running to his mom from the same exact playground he was crying from. Mark was just watching this he was watching from afar, seeing how much of a happy kid he was yet slowly seeing his family break apart. "Come here marky" his mother said, "its getting late lets go make some dinner" smiling mark held his moms hand and went inside the house. Mark wanted to wake up so badly from this dream he couldnt resist watching his mother anymore. They got inside and straight away 10 yearold mark saw his father with another women on the couch. Marks mother froze in place and had anger in her eyes, she sighed trying to hold her tears back. "Go into your room marky" she kissed mark on the head "i love you" she said with another smile having a small tear drop from her eye. "Love you too mommy", but who knew that would be the last time he saw his mother.  Mark was in his room but all he could hear was screaming, shouting, things breaking and it made mark want to cut off his ears. He got his pillow and covered his head hoping to muffle the noise but that didnt help at all. Until he heard the last words of his mom "STOP IT PUT THAT DOWN" than all he heard was a blood curdling scream that he will forever remember.... mark couldnt handle it anymore he ran down stairs and saw it... he saw his dead mother's lifeless body on the ground. "MOMMY" he screamed "WHAT DID YOU DO TO MOMMY?!?!" his cold blooded father just sat back down and said the words that made mark want that man dead just like his mom, as he said the words mark never wanted to ever hear "she deserved it" his father said coldly. "Your a monster, you did this to mommy" i said as i had tears streaming down my eyes covered with my own mothers blood.

Mark woke up in shock and looked around as if he didnt know where he was. He felt his face it had tears streaming down from his eyes all over his cheeks. He just stood there in his bed and punched the pillows with every anger he had. "Its all that mother fuckers fault" "he killed her, he should be the one dead"