if i cant have you- s.m, c.c

chapter 39

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easy by camila cabello

"always thought i was hard to love till you made it seem so easy"

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"hey everyone, swipe up to watch senorita's bts, by the way a little spoiler..." *comes closer to the camera and whispers, "shawn dropped me" 

2 hours ago...

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𝟏𝟏:𝟒𝟒 𝐩𝐦//𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞

"𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗪𝗘𝗥𝗘 𝗔𝗠𝗔𝗭𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗧𝗢𝗗𝗔𝗬!" camila squealed pulling him into a hug. she had watching him perform from the VIP area where a booth was strictly only for her and their friends. she didn't want anyone to see her at the concert because she knew more rumours were going to stir. "thank you" he blushed, his arms still wrapped around her smaller frame. 

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they had already gotten ready for bed, after returning to the hotel from the concert. they pulled away from the hug and got settled on the bed, cuddling. shawn had his hands wrapped around her and her back faced him. "now, we need to talk" he said, "you have been ignoring this topic since you came. we need to talk about it" he completed. she sighed, and turned around to face him. "you're right", "what do you want to do about us, do you want the world to know, because we aren't always going to remain in the crush zone" he said to her, his voice soft. she nodded. "yeah, i just don't want many speculating things right now, i want it to be private currently, i'm scared shawn" she whispered, her voice breaking in the end. 

"i want it to be like our little secret, but i also don't want to shy away from holding my crush's hand" she continued, "i get you, you know when i ask you to be my girlfriend i want to be able to hold your hand and kiss you whenever i want you know, how about we don't label ourselves to the public when we start dating. we will know what we truly are to each other, and that's what matters. who cares what they think, they can go fuck themselves for all i care about" he said, making her giggle at the last part.

"so you're planning to ask me to be your girlfriend huh?" she teased him, he tried to maintain a serious, stoic face trying to stop the blush from rising to his cheeks. "let's not change the topic hm? when we talked on facetime you were not okay mila, it impacted you. don't let it please, those people who say bullshit have no clue what's happening between us. but we know, and that's all that matters" he said, running his fingers through her soft hair. 

"i know, you are correct. but i'm human shawn, it affects me and i know it affects you too" she whispered, an understanding look on her face.

"yeah mila, but if you show that you don't care they stop" he said, putting his face on her chest. trying to hide the tears which welled up in his eyes.

"you are going to cry in my lap right now, because then you pretend you are okay but you are not shawn. if you cry you are not any less of a man, you're so strong" she cooed to him, and he let a few tears fall.

"thank you, i love you" he whispered.

i love you too shawn, i love you too.

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hello guys !! hope you liked the thirty ninth chapter.

i'm sorry it's so short ahaha

and this book is going to come to an end soon omg, wow. but after finishing this book i'm going to start another shawmila book! i have sm planned, and i also have my imagines shawmila book. check it out !!

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