𝐹𝑙𝑎𝑠ℎ𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘// 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠

꒰ nine ꒱

Dallas Winston

After that dinner when Cassie came to the Curtis house I couldn't get her out of my head. I
knew I could never gain her trust ever again or have her but I wanted her.

Our relationship was like a bipolar relationship. At one moment I was laying down in bed with her and she would be playing with my hair then the next we would be yelling and telling each other off until one of us got hurt.

I knew she loved me but I can't love her. I cheated on her thinking that if I did that she would leave and stop loving me. It worked. She did leave but she never stopped loving me so I still have a chance.

She might be with Sodapop but he just doesn't get her. She's not like the typical greaser girl. She's not the preppy soc. She's something else man.

Every time I talk to her I just want her, I want to kiss her and tell her that she's mine and that I'll protect her. That I'm the one for her not fucking Sodapop.

We might of had a toxic rough relationship but that was because I did that, because I was scared to love her I didn't want to hurt her but making her leave just made things 10 times worse.

After the day we broke up I wrecked everything, I fucked up my life and just spent 10 months in the cooler. I never forgot about her but I had to let her go so I did. Until I saw her at dinner.

She was wearing a dress that exposed her back and was loose in the front. Her hair was down and look so soft. She was always so beautiful to me, I just want her back.

I was sitting on the couch at the Curtis place. I slept over cause I got wasted last night somewhere after I talked to Cassie at the drive in.

"You okay Dal?" Johnny asked me as he sat next to me. I looked at him and sighed.

"You got a smoke?"

"Yeah" he gave me the cig and I lit it. I got up and walked to the liquor cabinet and took out some fireball to drink. I sat down and just drank away.

"What's wrong?" Johnny asked me, I didn't answer, all I had running through my mind was her and how much I hurt her. "Dal you don't look so good"

"Is Cassie okay?" I asked him

"I don't know, she seemed kinda out of it last night. Sodapop said that she seemed down or just out of it you know"

"Have you ever been with a broad that you really like and then break up with her cause you don't want to hurt her but you end up hurting her anyway and then she moves on and falls in love with someone else but you know she still loves you"

"No" Johnny mumbled, i shook my head and just kept drinking and smoking. "Why do you not like Cassie? She's alway is nice"

"It's a personal thing" I muttered and looked at the wall slowly zoning out and drowning in my memories.

"What you mean personal? Like..." he kept talking but I didn't listen his voice got quieter and quieter the more I thought about Cassie.

Flashback:

"Do you ever think about the future?" Cassie asked me as we both were laying down on the grass looking at the stars.

"No why?" I asked her

"I'm just asking" she said softly

"Do you think about the future?" I looked at her and she smiled as she looked at the stars

"Everyday"

"What you thinkin' bout?" I kept looking at her beautiful face. She was so perfect.

"I think about living in a small house, helping my mom and dad with money. I think about falling in love, like in the movies and fairytales" she looked at me and giggled

"Who's your Prince Charming?" I chuckled and turned towards her and got on top of her

"Oh my Prince Charming is so very handsome, he's kind, he cares for me, he's tuff but a big softie, he is also amazing kisser" She smiled and put her arms around the back of neck

"Does he kiss like this?" I pecked her lips

"No" she giggled

"Like this?" I licked her lips and she laughed

"No!" She couldn't stop laughed

"Like this?" I gave her an actual kiss and she smiled

"Oh yeah" she nodded

"So what's this Prince Charming's name?" I asked her

"His name is a city in Texas" she ran her hand through my hair

"Austin?"

"No" she shook her head

"Huston?"

"No" she laughed

"Oh come on baby tell me" I laughed

"His name is Dallas. Dallas Winston"

"He sound real familiar"

"I bet he does" she giggled and kissed me again.

Flashback over.

"Were you in love with the girl?" Johnny asked me

"I think I was" I said snapping back into reality

"Did you tell her?"

"No"

"Come on Dal you have to tell her, do you still love her?"

"I don't know, I can't love, if I do she'll just end up leaving. I can't love her. I can't give her what she wants."

"Dal, Mrs.Curtis always said if you want something you can't just sit down and wait around for it. You have to get it."

"You don't think I fucking tried! Sorry. I tried. She doesn't even want to speak to me let alone see me"

"If you want it go get it. Don't think twice"

But she just doesn't love me as she did before