Ethan's POV
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I was overly happy that they excepted my little space. They were all so welcoming to it. I found out that sean and gab ran a little space babysitting group back home. We got to our first show location I made sure to stay big. I grabbed my stuff and went to my dressing room. This was my first ever tour and honestly I was terrified. It was a few hours before our show do we had set up and some practicing to do . I kept myself busy.
"All of you go get ready!" Our manager yelled. We all did as told and went separate way. I bypassed the stage and glanced out at the crowed and see the amount of people I felt panic rise to my chest as my anxiety got built up. I didn't say anything to anyone and just walked to my dressing room at a quicker pace. Without a doubt there was over 100 it was closer to 500. I felt tears falling as I grabbed my clothes getting changed. This was only the first show and one of our smaller venues what was I going to do with the bigger crowds? I was going to be fucked. I wiped my tears making sure I looked half ass decent and walked out to the main area.
"Ethan you get to be the first to sing so what are you singing? Choose 3" I looked at the suprised.
"Oh uhhh "you belong with me" by taylor swift" I said. Why did I choose that song? Was it because I knew I liked mark and couldn't have him because he had amy? Was it because I wanted mark to be my caregiver but I knew he wouldn't because no may in hell would amy be okay with that? Is it because I knew what I wanted and it wasn't going to happen? I had no clue to be honest all I knew was that I was fucked.
"You need 3 so 2 more"
"Um "Heather" by conan gray and my original song" I stated. Why was I choosing such sad songs? Was I really okay? No, no I wasn't and I knew it. Before I knew it I was alone on the stage having to sing a taylor swift song. I wasn't going to hear the end of this. Fans were going to puzzle piece things together I swear.
"You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do
I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain, and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So, why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Walk in the streets with you in your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile
That can light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what you doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain, and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So, why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your backdoor
All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Oh, I remember you driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me
Can't you see that I'm the one
Who understands you?
Been here all along
So, why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your backdoor
All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me
You belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me" I finished singing that and quickly walked off stage. As much as I loved our fans I was very overwhelmed at the moment. i sighed and sat with the others so we could finish what we were doing and then went to my dressing room and took a quick shower and curled up on the couch in there. I felt tears falling and sleep over coming me. I woke up on the bus in my little space jammies and on the couch. Who brought me out here? Why was I enjoying this? Why did I suddenly wake up and my brain want amy or mark? What was going on? Was I getting attached to them? Like overly attached? what happens if I am? I sat up looking around. I was in my headspace it was san instant slip as I realized I was in my puppy onesie. I was a cute little pupper dog. I noticed amy and made grabby hands but instead of Amy or mark tyler grabbed me. I said something clearly not thinking.
"Nunu tyty m wan mama or dada" (no no tyty I want mama or dada) I said pointing to mark and Amy. I wanted to punch myself but it felt right and it slipped out of my mouth. I swear when I'm little I loose my filter. Amy and mark both smiled and mark came and grabbed me bringing me back over to him and Amy.
"Tank woo da- markie" (thank you da- markie) I mumbled the last part. If I was being honest I wanted mark to be my daddy and I wouldn't mind amy being my mommy. I just liked mark more then amy because I had a stupid crush on mark.
"What was that pumpkin"
"Nutin markie" (nothing markie)
"It's okay, you can call me daddy princess it's okay" I felt my cheeks go red and I got excited. I couldn't show it though. He gave a kiss on the forehead before amy switched the movie on her iPad to Alice and wonderland. I really liked this movie big or little. Amy had really good taste in movie! I was quickly zoned into the movie. I made grabby hands to my paci that was sitting on the counter and mandie got up and grabbed it for me.
"Here little man" she said handing it to me.
"Tank woot pana" (thank you panda).
"Your welcome little man, have a nice movie night with your mommy and daddy okay?" I nodded at her and blushes as she called them my 'mommy' and 'daddy' i honestly really liked the idea of them being full caretakers. That could happen. Maybe I could talk to them about it, but until that conversation happens I have my stuffies, my paci, and 2 wonderful people to cuddle while watching a movie, I was going to enjoy this time, not overthink.
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FanfictionEthan is a little. He has told no one. His girlfriend found out and left him. He wanted to have a caregiver but the only person he wanted he was scared to tell. Besides that Ethan wasn't dumb he knew that Mark was straight and wanted no one besides...
