Disclaimer: There are self-hating thoughts in this. The farthest I will ever go is panic attacks and potentially reckless behavior but even that will not be excessive.
Y/N POV
"Hey get up. Bucky is making breakfast" Natasha spoke as she violently shook you awake.
" Well, that was rude," I stated under my breath. She gave a small smile as she walked out of the room.
*time skip because I don't feel like writing getting ready*
The smell of maple and coffee filled my senses as I walked into the kitchen to see Bucky and Steve making pancakes while dancing together laughing. I shook my head smiling at them and walked over to the counter to talk to Wanda. As I walked up to her she smiled at me and sat down next to Vision motioning for me to come to sit on her right side.
" So are you excited for school today? I heard it's a school for science and stuff so that sounds like fun." Wanda smiled as she started to plate her food. Following her lead, I grabbed a pancake and some toast, then spoke.
" Yeah, it should be nice. I'm just worried about someone finding out about my powers and stuff." I said dully as I thought to myself about different possibilities. They could find out, they will use you for your dad, you won't make friends, you'll be a loser, you're a freak, worthless, ugly. I hit myself in the head as hard as I could trying to stop the words that repeated in my head. As soon as I did I felt hands grip my arms hard to stop me from repeating the action. Looking up I see Wanda and Nat pinning my arms to my side still eating. About five minutes later they looked at each other, then at me, back at each other, and let go of my arms. I started to eat when dad walked in and started complaining about how the others drank all of the coffee, paused, gave a small nod my way, and then continued yelling. Slipping back into thought the voice returned
That was pathetic
At least he didn't ignore me.
He doesn't care about you. We talked about this.
No, you told me that.
Was I wrong?
Shut up
He doesn't love you. None of them do. You are nothing. You are shit.
Shut up. Shut up. Shut up.
When was the last time he said he loved you? It certainly wasn't anytime recently.
He does love me, stop it.
Again, am I wrong?
Yes now shut the hell up
You might want to stop trying to hit your head, people are staring.
" Why am I on the floor? And what the hell is so heavy?" Looking up a groan escapes my lip as I realize that Natasha and Wanda have my arms pinned, Bruce and Sam have my legs pinned and Mjölnir is sitting on my chest.
" We look away for one second and you start hitting yourself again," Natasha interjected.
" Well I'm fine now so please get off of me. I have school in 20 minutes and it takes 15 to get there so move." Reluctantly the four let go and stood up. They just looked at me with concern written all over their faces. Dad walked up to me as I stood up and started to go over the plan.
" You will be Y/N Miller at school. No one is to know about your identity or your powers. Go."
" ok dad" I whispered under my breath, I ran up to my room and grabbed my things. Hastily shoving everything into my bag and running downstairs hugging everyone, but when I got to dad he stood up and pointed at his suit indicating if I hugged him that it would be wrinkled. My heart dropped and my gaze fell to the floor. I muttered a quick apology and then walked outside.
