im back sorry its been a bit
to get you catched up on 2021
january was horrible,
febuary was actually pretty good
and now its march and ik its gonna be a good month bc presley will be here for half of it, but that being said tonight has not been good...
its always me
im always the problem
im always the reason things go wrong
im always the CAUSE
i hate it, i feel worthless i FEEL like the problem because my step dad makes me feel that way
im so sick of feeling like the problem but i cant get out of that mindset i just want to die i just want it all to be over i hate this with all my heart bc i know im worth it and i know im not the problem but i cant help thinking it.
my brain wont fucking turn off it just keeps repeating how worthless i am and how im the reason this family is falling apart. but im not, i cant be right?
shut up IT WONT TURN OFF its so bad that now im popping a pill to get it to calm down
its so bad that my straighting iron is plugged in not to do my hair no, more to burn my skin bc thats who we are right. we burn ourselves to make the mental anguish go away.
how pathetic.
someone kill me already youd be doing the rest of the world a favour.
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ranting #1
Randomwhere i rant to my hearts content about the fucked up shit in my life :) if my life was a tv show this is the behind the scenes (this really isn't for anyone it's just a personal diary)
