Battle Scars (A Bucky Barnes Fanfic)

Thirty-Three

I wake with Bucky's arm around me; the sunlight pouring in through the small window. I look up at his face, a look of peace on his face as he sleeps. I shift slightly and his arm tightens around me and he buries his face against my back and I drift off to sleep once again.

A while later, I wake up again to find Bucky re-entering the hut. He's in a simple shirt with the sleeve torn off and pants and his boots. It's been a year since we came to Wakanda, and five months ago I had another miscarriage.

Which is why I haven't told Bucky that I'm pregnant again. I can't bear letting him down again. I change into a green henley and jeans and my boots. As I put on my jewelry, Bucky hugs me from behind and kisses my neck.

"So you're going shopping with Shuri and Adana today?"

"Yeah, will you be ok alone for a bit?"

He turns me to face him, giving me a "are you kidding me" look before cracking a smile and kissing me.

"You drive me crazy sometimes starlight"

"I know" I smirk.

He kisses me again and I hear footsteps approaching and turn as Shuri and Adana knock on the doorway.

"Hey you two," I say smiling at them.

"Hey Vega," Shuri says.

"Good to see you," Adana says.

"You too" I hug them before looking back at Bucky.

He smiles and says "Go have fun"

I kiss him one last time before we leave.

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As we walk around the market, looking at the clothes and jewelry, Adana looks at me.

"Have you told Bucky yet?" she asks.

"No, not yet"

"Why not?" Shuri asks, picking up a silver and topaz bracelet cuff.

"Because I've already had two miscarriages, what if I have another one? I've disappointed him so many times now. I can't do it again"

"But what if you actually carry to term?" Adana says.

"That seems like a long shot at this point"

Shuri grabs my arm "Tell him, he deserves to know, regardless of what happens"

"I know but I'm scared, I know he won't leave me but he doesn't deserve to go through this again"

"There is still hope, Vega, just talk to him. That's how relationships work"

I sigh and pick up a ring with a thin rose gold band and a pear-shaped rainbow moonstone surrounded by a round purple tanzanite on either side.

"Are you getting it?" Shuri asks when she walks over to look.

"I don't know," I reply.

"You should" Adana pipes in.

I look at the price "Yeah, I don't have enough for that"

Shuri pulls out some money and hands it to the vendor.

"Shuri-"

"Think of it as my birthday gift to you you turned 22 a few days ago, and I didn't see you"