A Smile, A Tear And A Snowflake. (Larry Stylinson BoyxBoy)

Chapter19.

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I didn't really fall asleep though the night. I could only think at how this would ever come alright again. I messed it up and I did it big time. I don't know if Harry would ever forgive me or ever realize I care about how so much. I love him with whole my heart. I can't leave a day without seeing him smile those dimple smiles.

I sighed and opened my eyes when I heard footsteps walking over towards the cough. Closing my eyes I didn't wanted him to know I was awake. I heard him sat down on the floor and tried my best not to open my eyes when he wraped my hand in one of his. I heard sobbing and knew Harry was crying. My heart broke when he let go of my hand again. I opened one eye to see him curled up on the floor, legs pressed against his chest arms wrapped around them, while his head rested on his knees.

It was hard to see him so broken and I knew I should be holding him; there was some part telling me not to.

'I know I don't diserve to be here, with you', Harry said though his tears. 'I never even thought I was good enough to be in One Direction'. I could feel my heart break and I wanted to show him so badly he was good enough. 'I don't have an amazing voice like Liam or Zayn. I don't look good like You or Niall or everyone', I still can't believe he thinks like that. He's the most wonderful person I ever met, I love his voice and he can sing so beautiful but yet powerful. He is beautiful, I mean look it him. He had curls and those cute dimples.

Another sob left his lips when I suddenly lay his head down on the cough, right next to my chest. 'I can't do anything right, I screwed up our first live concert which i'm still thinking about'.

'The worse part is, it's sad i'm telling you this while you sleep, cuz I don't have balls to so it when you're awake', he whispered even though I could perfectly hear him. He slowly traced his finger along my hand. I just wish he could talk to me when I am awake, I'm not the one to judge him. I felt tears well up in my eyes when I heard him cry more and more.

'The fact is, I was bullied on every school I went cuz I'm stupid and ugly and bi, I never told any of you because I thought you would think I was a freak, which I am', Harry said even more crying than he just did. I felt guilt and disgusting building up inside me. I never knew he was bullied, off course he will think low about himself if people brought him down all the time. I now knew why his famous life was so hard.

'I'm sorry i never told you how I really felt about you, I knew I would never be enough for you even when you would like me back', Harry snift. 'Louis you have to know your everything I have left with the boys and my family. You my true love and I know you would tell my how sappy that sounds', he said chuckling. 'but I don't care because I could never ever love someone as much as I love you. But I know I will never be good enough for you'.

I just wanted to scream and make him realize how perfect he is. I couldn't believe I thought I wad to good for him, cuz to be honest I think Harry is to good for me. I felt him move again and when I slowly open my eyes again he looked a head again.

'The worst part is we would come here to have a great time together, because you are my bestfriend. But I screwed it up like I do with everything', he said laying his head back on his knees. 'I miss that, I miss we could have fun without me being stupid. I just miss everything and the boys as well'.

I softly lay my hand on his shoulder. He head snapped up looking at me with fear. His cheeks tear streamed just look my. His eyes red from crying.

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