5 mouths later
Ceara
"Mama!"Chrissten yelled from down stairs. I got up and stretched. I already told August that this might be his and he was way more exsited then I tho it He would be. He also has been telling me to come with him or something like that and when I say no he'll yell at me or something. I just don't know what's wrong with him lately.Jasmine has been telling me to just leave him alone and that. Shuols have nothing to do with him. But when I tell her the same she don't want to listen. But anyway Chris said that he knows it's his so he's not even worried about it. My sister couldn't have her baby because James made her get an abortion. I'm tying so hard to help her dust she told me to just stay out of it which I just can't do. I come over there every now and then and he be hitting her and when I try to do something about it she stop me. I hate when she do that. Chrissten is so excited because it's a boy. I didn't want to know yet but Chris did. He went behind my back and fond out and he told Chrissten. Long story short Chrissten can't keep a secret. She kept say lil brother and when I asked her why she told me flat out. He exact words was daddy played the doctor to tell him if it's a boy or girl and he told him it was a boy so that's me brother. Chris was mad at her for about a hour then they made up. I'm glad it's a boy,our family needed another boy. "Yes lil girl"I said walking in her room. "Daddy asked do you want something while he's out"She said. "Um yeah tell him to get some hot and regular pickles,nachos and cheese, cucumbers, carrots, jalapenos,and some Subway"I said. She nodded and repeated what is said in the phone. "But I can't say that
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"I'm I gonna get in trouble"
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"Ok fine"
She looked at me. "Mama daddy said that yo fat ass ain't getting all that damn shit. You ain't feeding my baby that shit. You gone get some Subway and cucumber"She said.
"And don't hit me because those are his words not mines"She said. I shook my head. He's gone give me what I want so I don't know why he playing. _________________________________
August
I have been working on this song for months trying to make sure it's right.The only reason I have been a little mean to her is because I'm just a little frustrated with the whole thing. I swear I pray every night that this baby is mines. So I'll have a good reason to see her. I wanted her to come out somewhere with me but she said no so the only way I could get her to here is thru the tv cause I know she ain't driving no were. I was at my cousin house. When we was on the streets he would be the out to cut off the power or something like that. He had his lil brother with him. He's brother is really good at computers and stuff like that. They working together to get all her stations cut off for a couple of minutes. When they did I got ready to sing.
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Ceara
I was watching Martin when the t.v. went blank. I was finna get up and do something but it flashed back on and it was just white. I got up and started hitting it on the side until I herd a August voice. " Girl I know sometimes that I mistreat you, and you still come back
And I see your homegirl try to reach you, but you ain't hearing none of that
They try to get through, they say I ain't the move
I don't know, cause girl it might be true
When they tell you, you should walk away but you stay anyway
Girl I think it's best for me to say this, I ain't no good
And your heart ain't something I should play with
So let's get it understood
I ain't trying to ruin your life
If anything I just want to make it right
And tell the judge I ain't even gotta plead my case
I can tell my baby to her face
I was just your nigga next door
But girl I see more for you, I see more for you
And you ain't gotta have no fear, no I'll always be here for you, girl I'm here for you
And I know you may not end up with me, it ain't gotta be me
Cause I'm still playing outchea in these streets
But I'm just saying
You deserve better, I'm saying, you deserve better
[Verse 2:]
I know that love can be blind
But just open your eyes, open your eyes
Take a look in the mirror
Baby girl you a prize
And any man that don't see that you should let his ass go, believe that
Because his love ain't real
What he won't do another nigga will
[Pre-Hook]
[Hook]
[Bridge:]
You deserve all the love, you deserve all the love
You deserve all the care, you deserve all the care
You deserve all that and more, you deserve all that and more
You deserve better, you deserve better
You deserve to laugh, you deserve to laugh
Baby you deserve to smile, baby you deserve to smile
You deserve the best of everything
You deserve better"
I didn't cry or even make an reaction.I sighed and waited for my tv to cone back on. I don't know who he think he is. He basically saying Chris dint deserve me. He just needs to stop.
