BRIGHTWIN SHORT ONE-SHOTS

Love like his

He never understands how people can fall in love without any reason. He thinks it's as idiotic as it sounds, love at first sight that is.

That's why he cannot relate with Sarawat in some way. They may have the same personality, the same interests but not the way they love. Sarawat falls head first while Bright needs more concrete, Freudian reason to love. Also the reason why he thinks Sarawat is stupid the first time he read the script.

He is a realist, always has been but then he met the previous Sarawat now turns Tine. The epitome of sunshine and spring is standing right in front of him, smiling full of teeth without any sign of malice. Damn he wants to protect this boy's innocence, shields him from the harsh world if he could.

He cannot make out any words that the boy has said, probably introducing himself, his head is still clouded with feelings that he cannot comprehend so he just nods before leaving the boy without any word. Sure he feels bad but he cannot think right now, he hopes the boy thinks he is just awkward.

Then filming started, they spend more and more time together.

Through out their whole interactions he thought nothing of the weird feelings in his tummy, the simmering heat under his skin when Win teases him. He never feels this way before, and even if it's love he already has someone who holds his heart dearly(though the love fades even before he became Sarawat. More like a bittersweet relationship between him and his girlfriend).

That is until they filmed the scene where Sarawat and Tine first met at the Scrubb's concert. The director described to him how he needs to feel and that's when it hits him. The love that he thinks impossible and unrealistic is actually a thing.

'Oh fuck' he thought, 'I love him'.

The feeling stays even after they finished filming the series, even after 2gether finished airing. The sweet taste when he kissed Win sometimes lingers on his tongue when he remembers hard enough.

The idiot here is now him, not Sarawat whose love burns so bright. The character he thought that will become Icarus somehow got his the love his life even if he loves the dense boy.

Tine is dense but not Win, Win is amazing, beautiful and smart. He cares about people so much, so soft and easy to love. Win is perfect.

Win is also the type to love freely, giving people enough space to be comfortable with him while still being his loud chattery self. The type that people cannot hate because he has this child-like innocence people adore so much.

Win is pretty and magnificent and Bright does not know how to approach this angel with his not so platonic feelings.  Sometimes he's scared that he will explode with how much he loves that man.

One of the host asked him if he can love like that, loving someone so much without anything in return. He used to think that he can't, that he needs to know someone before loving them but Win changed that.

It's not a lie that Sarawat taught him a new way to love but Win is the source of his love.

So he channels his inner Sarawat and loves Win the way Sarawat will, with actions instead of words. He starts being more attentive, taking care of the boy when he burns out. Sometimes the star burns out too so during those day he scoops Win into his arms and babies him until he's okay.

Honestly he kind of like the way it is, that he and Win have their friendly dates and that they pick up each other during hard days.

The way Win will softly strokes his hair when he will bury his head at the crook of the boy's neck. He will remember the fresh strawberry smell from Win's body wash and the weight of Win on his lap during those day, his anchor when the netizens and haters got too much and kills him in the inside little by little.

He thought it's enough, loving him without having Win's heart in return. He thought loving without getting anything was enough until he saw the sea of Win's fanboys constantly trying to get his attention, or the sneaky glances from their co-workers who seem too eager when Win is near them. Honestly it's getting more and more annoying.

Now he provides more and more of his clothes when they are together. They have the same size so it's not too obvious, at least for the staffs, but never to the fans. They think it's cute and sweet but they don't know his reason, they don't understand his ugly dark desire to make Win his and stop other people from drooling over his boy.

His silent chase continues for so long, too long for him to be patient so he takes the opportunity during the filming of still2gether. P' Aof literally lets him run wild with his improvisation so he did. The satisfaction when he bit Win's lip or the way Win's legs wrapped around him when pushed against the table triggers something in him, something almost feral. A side to take him apart right there if not stopped by the director.

He takes while Win willingly lets him have it. If they continue doing this he might actually confess for real.

And he did, the last day of filming.

Call it an impulse after smooching but damn he accidentally lets out a low "I love you," that he is sure Win heard because the eyes grow wide, then soften before the boy gives him one of the most brilliant smile he ever seen.

He wants to brush it off, pretending it never happens even if it will hurt him immensely but Win winds his arms around Bright's neck to pull him into another kiss. The moan that Win lets out might have been the reason why they didn't use the part but he is satisfied.

He never thought love could be like this, as weird as it is. The love he used to hate is the reason he has someone to hold at night and the smiles he wakes up to.

Again the interviewer asked him if he can love like Sarawat, this time he gives Win the fondest look before replying, "Yeah I think I already love like that," and the blush from Win's fair face might makes his heart skips a beat. 

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So this is kind of a birthday fic for Sarawat? Anyway the kiss scene is so good to not use so haha kinda mature ig?