BRIGHTWIN SHORT ONE-SHOTS

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Bright tighten his grips on the younger's wrists, disabling him from breaking free.

"Phi, we talked about this before. You were so sure that our love is just a spur of the moment thing, that you were too into the character that it made you love me," Win is not looking at him, he has his ducked to cover his face from Bright, but the crack in his voice gave him away. Bright knows even without looking into the other's eyes that the male is tearing up.

Bright admits his mistake, years ago he was adamant about loving Win is just work for him and that the love is not real. He gave himself reasons, maybe he wanted love as he just broke up with Nevvy or that the Sarawat in him still sees Win as Tine. He keeps telling himself that his love for Win is just an artificial thing that were developed because he can't lose his job and to make his role looks real for the series viewers.

He believed that or maybe wanted to believe that. And it hurts Win in the process. His denial hurts the one that he should love.

He inhales deeply, composing himself, "I am sorry... And I know my sorry is not enough to heal you but please.. please give me a second chance?" he knows he is being unfair to Win, it took him a whole year to figure out his feeling when the boy tried so hard to act like he's okay. He failed Win and he wants to make up to it.

Bright loosen his grip which he expects Win to pull away, but the boy stays and says nothing though his silence now changing into a soft sobbing.

"Why? How?" Win is confused with Bright. They talked about this before, they discussed this over and over again while Win hopes, hopes that Bright might change his mind but his senior keep insisting that their feeling towards each other is nothing but just an illusion.

Screw him for not moving on earlier, if not he can just reject Bright and leave him be but how can he? They had to work everyday together, they hang out together and hell they even have to make sequel and a movie for the series that made him catch feelings so tell him, tell him, how can he move on?

Now the man he loves, truly loves is infront of him, begging for forgiveness and he desperately wants to give. But what if this confession is just a joke? He cannot have his heart broken again...

"It just I realized that I never felt like this to anyone.. and being Thyme is not easy. At first I was confused why being Sarawat is like a second nature to me, like I was meant to be him but being Thyme I am more attracted to Kavin than to Gorya," getting into character and to pretend he loves Tu is not easy, not as easy as he thought. He spent so much time with the female, in hope they will have the chemistry like Bright and Win have but it never felt quite right. It's not necessarily forced but he can wrap it around his head that he wants to love her that way.

Win lifts his head, staring into Bright's eyes, as if he is searching for the truth. He is searching the sincerity in Bright's words.

Bright puts cups Win's face, wiping away the tears, staring back into the red-rimmed eyes.

"Can we try again? Please?" he pleads. Even if it is less cruel to just move on and keep going like everything is normal, Bright refuses to have that normalness, if he can still have a piece of Win's love.

Win opens his mouth to say something then sighs. He puts his hands on Bright's, "Phi.. I cannot lie that I still love you but.. can you give me some time? Can I have the time for myself first. I promise that the answer is yes but I need time to wrap my head around this".

"You can take all the time you want. I know this is hard for you. I know I am being unfair to you and honestly I didn't you will accept me because I hurt you so much,"

"Yeah you did," Win snickers, "But I also know that you love me. In your own way at least. And I am grateful that you think I am worthy of your love," he says which makes Bright tears up. Arhh.. he really took this boy for granted.

"You are, and always will be worthy of my love. I am the one who should be cower before you because you are too good for me," Win removes his hands and wraps his arms around Bright's shoulder, pulling him into a kiss.

"I think we are good for each other," Win decides once he pulls away, smiling so brightly that he shows his bunny teeth.

'I can wait for him,' Bright thinks, if Win can wait for him then Bright will give all the time that Win wants.

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Okay this one is sloppy for real 😂😂 so yeah aaaa this is a way for me to channel my nervousness (god remembering it already makes me want to puke lol) so yeah pls take this badly written, unbetaed fanfic 😂😂😂