DADDY ISSUES || J.JK × Reader ✔

chapter 21 | Guilty

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2 pm.

'YOUR P.O.V'

"Hey," Haneul touches my knee with his, both of us sitting on a stair with Korain to wait for the bus to take us to the swimming class with the other students. "Are you okay?" he speaks in a low voice, and I nod. "Hm. I am," I lie to him, and he keeps his eyes on me, not believing this answer.

I toy with the bottom of my skirt to avoid his gaze on me, but Korain presses a kiss on my temple. "She's not telling the truth," he exposes me in front of my best friend, and I glare at him. "I am..."

"No, you're not. I can see it in the way you talk or behave, so Haneul, who knows you way more than I do obviously know you're lying," he states what I do not want to hear since this is undeniable. "So stop," he presses his lips onto mine. "Just be honest with us, you don't have to lie."

"I don't want to talk about the same thing over and over again...so I'd rather tell myself I'm fine because nothing will change that anyway..." I glance away, the sickness in my stomach never leaving me. I'm ashamed of myself, I hate myself, and I sometimes wish I wasn't anyone. I do believe I do not deserve to be here, and my dad deserves better than the girl I am. He is too good to have such a daughter.

"Don't say that, it will change," he tells me otherwise, and I listen without believing. This will not, I know how I am, this will never stop eating me.

"Have you heard about that girl who likes to hoe around?" a girl speaks out loud near us, my mind telling me right away that I'm that one they're talking about. "Yeah. That rich girl who was known as Mister Park's slut, right?" they both laugh as if this was funny, and I keep my eyes on the ground, feeling the panic grow inside of me. "I heard that she fucked with Jungkook while having two other guys—"

"Bitches, you shut the fuck up before I stand up," Korain does not remain quiet but gets all the attention over him. "What? Does someone here feel concerned?"

"I warned you, don't try me," he does not kid at all, not caring about the fact that they are girls. "Well. I'm sorry, I talk about what I want with my friends, and don't call us bitches when you literally date a slut."

Korain stands up and steps towards her without any hesitation. "Say that again, and you'll fucking cry."

She stares into his eyes, smirking, with her arms crossed as everyone is looking at them. "Are you deaf? I said that y/n is a fucking slut who fucks with every guy—" a hard slap stops her voice that she raised in front of everybody, but makes me jump, and I quickly glance down to not see anything, my eyes becoming teary. "Come on," he pushes her and starts to be violent as her friend just tried to stop him, doing something I'm afraid of. "Bitch about her again. Why do you fucking shut your mouth once a man is in front of you? You're not confident anymore now, uh?" the sound of another hit triggers what I hate to feel, so I cover my ears but feel Haneul react.

He brings Korain back after another guy came to defend the girl who got hit by him. "Don't do that in front of her, for fuck's sake," he throws him against a wall, but I stand up and leave to not have to face anyone here anymore. I do not care about the class at all, I walk into another street, but someone grabs my arm and pulls me back.

Haneul takes me in his arms, and I break down. "I want to die..." the words escape me out of pain and self-loath, but Haneul cups my chin and raises my head up. "Do not. Do not ever say that again. Can you even imagine how your dad would feel if he heard that?"

"He wouldn't disagree because I'm a disgusting girl—"

"Stop. I told you not to say that," he cuts me off again when I just feel horrible for being this kind of person. "Sit down and get those thoughts out of your head," he makes me get on a stair hidden in a corner, and he squats down in front of me as he must have noticed that I'm shaking. "You stop saying or even thinking those words, y/n. Okay? You know more than anyone that your dad would never want to hear this from you. Those people are just fucking immature, they do not know you, they do not know anything. Don't listen to them, they're nothing."