updates on a few things concerning...
ME!
it's been nearly 3 weeks since i made myself throw up.
sadly, i've be struggling with starving myself.
still questioning my sexuality.
still go by she/they them/her
i am not single(look in my bio at the end)
as of late i go by 3 names. idc which 1 u call me. Bli, Matilda and Amiah. unless i've told u that u could call me other things. tee hee
still haven't told either of my parents that ima demi girl
my mom would just be like "hey, you do you."
my dad would probably give me 20 reasons on why i'm a girl.
i haven't told either that i'm poly
my mom is religious
my father? HA THERE IS NO WAY HE WOULD BE OKAY WITH IT NO WAY
HE DIDN'T DISOWN ME WHEN I TOLD HIM I WAS BI
BUT I THINK HE MIGHT IF I TOLD HIM I'M A POLY DEMI GIRL SOOOOOO
I'LL STAY CLOSETED THANKS(for now i will)
i haven't self harmed in months even though i came close a couple times.
i ate food today.wait did i?
oh yeah i did.
i don't want to eat but i have to otherwise i'll probably get found
my mom doesn't know i purged( i don't want her to worry)
and she doesn't know i've been starving myself. if she did, she'd stay downstairs while i ate, and wouldn't leave til all my food was gone. grrrr
why does she have to care so muuuuuuuuuch it makes it harder for me to purge and starve myselfff
i mean do i want do those things?
eh.
i wanna be pretty soooooooooooooo
anywaaaaayyyyyyyyyy
my mental health is somewhat better
kinda
my emotional health is everywhere rn lol
so anyway, those are some updates!
love you all!
stay magical!
-Matilda The Pastel Goth Witch Bitch
