TW suicide also my friend wrote this
CLAY POV
i woke up to george. i realized i just ran out of my depression medicine. "shit" i mumbled. later in the day i realized my depression kicking in. i want to die. i want to die. i want to die. i know i love george but i'm depression has taken over my body. only feeling happy when i'm with george. even when i'm with george i have never felt truly happy. i just think i am. what if george doesn't like me. what if this was a dare. what if george thought i was ugly or stupid. i'm worthless. the thoughts are getting the best of me. i can't do this anymore. i
decided i wasn't gonna tell george i was leaving. i drove the car to the neared bridge. i layed down near the edge and closed my eyes. when i opened them i felt like i could jump. so i did. i woke up in something like heaven.i saw george looking for me but getting a phone call.
"hello george? i'm so sorry i love you george"
then everything went black
then i was in a white room, a hospital room, i looked around and saw the one thing i regretted leaving, george. his face was red and puffy. he was holding onto my left hand and crying into my shoulder i squeezed his hand to let him know i was there. his head jerked up he looked at me for a long time then just jumped onto me and started histaricly crying and twitching i wrapped my arms around his body and that's how we woke up the next day
when i woke up he was just looking at me. "why" he managed to squeak . tears streamed down my face onto his head. he hugged me tighter " i had to i just had to "
we were both crying tears streaming down both of our faces.
hours later the nurse came in " your awake" and immediately started checking my vitals
george recluantly climbed off me and whispered in my ear " i'll be right back" and left the room.
i turned to the nurse and asked what happened because i knew george would start hyperventilating. " when you jumped you landed on a truck with hay in the back it saved you the man rushed you here." she said checking my blood pressure.
" and when was all of this" i asked
2 weeks ago she said
2 weeks i said tears streaming down my face
yes and your all good well you'll be out of here within a week
then she left .
then then the one thing i loved walked in
" i love you"
i love you too"
