I keep on looking at all the homework I’ve missed, it’s been 10 days. Who passes out for 10 days? It doesn’t feel like 10 days though. It feels like a few hours, although the stiffness in my body says the opposite. Neville comes back to the hospital wing, I smile at him.
“Did you get your bathroom break?” I tease him.
His face goes red, “Actually no. It was Malfoy. Apparently he can be invisible. I thought it was Harry, you know, got back and……” he keeps talking but all I hear is Malfoy’s name. Where is he now? I imagine what he did to Pansy and grin.
Neville stops talking and asks, “Why are you grinning?”
I compose my face, “Nothing. All this time in a coma, I’ve got to lose my mind a little. Don’t pay attention. What did he want?” I can’t help the eagerness from my voice.
He frowns, “He wanted me to give you this.” He hands me a letter. I take it from him and as I open it he adds, “Look, I think you should lower your expectations a little.”
I have no idea what he means, no one knows what happened with Pansy. They all think that we don’t know who did this or how it happened. I have no idea why, but right now I get a bad feeling. I close the letter again before reading it. “Neville, don’t you have a class or something?” I ask him trying to get rid of him. I have a feeling I need to read this alone.
“I’m too late for class. I’ll just give you some privacy and I’ll come back later to check on you.” He kisses my forehead and leaves.
I wait until his out and open it again, holding my breath:
Dear Lizzy,
I’m so sorry for what happened to you. It’s all my fault. I can’t believe I was the reason you went through all this. I will never forgive myself for this. But I promise you, Lizzy, she will pay for all of this. I will break her!
Snape and I agreed that it’s safer for you that we stay away. For me as well, as I know you don’t care about your safety. Seeing you like that, almost dead, broke me into pieces, Lizzy. You were nearly dead, Snape said it was a miracle that you lived, nobody ever survived this curse. I guess your mother’s pendant really works.
Please Lizzy, we have to keep our distance. Don’t be hurt if you saw me with her, because as Snape named it ‘a long term revenge’ you have to think of it this way. Please. I nearly died when I lost you, I can’t lose you again. Even if the price is being away from you and being with her instead. I know I promised you that I’ll never leave you again, but I can’t keep my promise on your expense.
You had me from the moment I met you, Lizzy. And it wasn’t in the Room of Requirements, it was 4 years before that. If you think after all this time I’d give up on you, you’d be crazy. We just need to be patient, you’re mine and I’m yours in every way.
Please don’t do anything crazy. Please. For me. And please forgive me, Lizzy.
Draco.
I feel like screaming, shouting or crying but all I do is stay frozen, re-reading his words. He’s not just leaving me, he is being with Pansy as well. I don’t care about bloody revenge or safety! Is he an idiot? I feel like he stabbed me in the heart with this letter. All I can think of are poisonous thoughts, I don’t know for how long I stay frozen like this. I don’t see Madame Pomfery when she enters, and apparently I didn’t hear her when she talked to me.
“Lizzy! Are you alright?” She shakes my shoulders and I snap out of my haze.
I shake my head quickly, “Yes. I’m fine. I was just… thinking about something.”
