Just when I thought I was finally moving
Just when I thought I would be able to brave the storm
A small thought entered me, making me pause
They say don't ever turn around and look back
But as I turn to see how far I have gone,
I realized I haven't been moving more than a step
Again like all the times before I tried
To push pass the darkness in my heart
The weight on my shoulders
The clouds hanging on my head
I could pretend that I was okay and put on a brave smile
But after all the battle, at night when it's quiet
I sat by my bed and looked down on the invisible bruises
And slowly the tears starts falling drop by drop
I tried to keep up as people move forward
Another season comes by
I see children laughing and smiling
Winter has come and the snow is pilling, a source of joy
Christmas will be here, the gift under the tree and the kisses under the mistleto
I wonder will I have that?
It is warm around me, with all the joy of the season
But the cold inside my heart continues to hammer
I am a small person drowning in this vast world
I tried to swim, I tried to run, I tried to fight
But with each second, it gets tiring
And I am desperate for a hand, a finger maybe
To help pull me through this storm
He doesn't have to be the hero, just a friend I could lean on
When the cold becomes to much that no amount of layers
Could be enough to provide me with warmth.
