The Light of the Sun that Chase the Moon

Chapter 3

I've been caught from the past due to the present that I have. I know I keep running back and forth and sometimes, no most of the time it's tiring. I wanted to share the burdens and the dilemma but I just couldn't say it all, not now and maybe never.

Solar is still the same, chubby face, beautiful smile, beautiful face and still she lives here, inside me. She's telling me something but I don't understand anything because just by looking at her i always get lost. Lost in her eyes, in her voice, lost just being with her. What caught my attention is her mentioning Lee, the famous Lee Da Hee "Excuse me, again? she what?" "She's kinda interested in me" Yong just blurted it out without any hesitation. "And you are too?" While I try to divert my attention to my coffee and keep praying that Yong would say no. "I kinda wanna give it a try?" More like a question to me than a statement. "You know I always trust your instinct, since i want you to find your happiness. And if she could give it to you who am I to say no"

I feel pain on my chest. It was like tearing me apart and I couldn't do anything about it. I like to cry on that instant but I need to hold it back. She had no clue, no idea at all. And this part, it always kills me every time. For how many times did I endure this scene, since we are together as a group.

FLASHBACK

"It has been decided this June will be your debut month so keep practicing, you may not have the face of a typical idol but you're singing and your vocals are our weapon" CEO Kim stated while we are still processing what he said.

It's been 3 years and finally the big day came for us. We are together for 3 years non stop training, not stop practicing and here we are just a few months left. We've been closer than before and as per Solar slowly she's learning how to lead us. The first year was a total disaster cause she would always get angry and mad when we could keep up with her. Especially Hyejin, but we used to talk about things and as much as possible I try to help her with the two younger ones.

After the debut of course we don't expect so much since we all know that we are not the typical idol that everyone was expecting. So what we did was we go to every street in Seoul to introduce our group and showcase our talent. Slowly we became noticeable we received invitations like collaboration and guesting. And after a year we had our 1st fan meeting "1st Moo Party"

Everything was going good and everything was slowly getting to it's places not until this heart of mine ruined everything and made me question a lot of things.