Things that i shouldn't feel and beyond my control at all, i don't even know how or when but it happens and i hate it. Not because I couldn't admit it but because I don't want to ruin everything nor i couldn't salvage the friendship that we all have. These feelings must never be out, i must keep it still and just go on like it didn't happen.
That stupid VLive is the root cause, she should never joke in that beyond and make my heart flutter and give a hint of a little hope
Moonbyul: *reads a question* Do you have a boyfriend?
Solar: *points at Byul* Yeah my boyfriend is right next to me.
And I started to question everything, her sweet words, her hug, the point of why she always stared and smiled at me. It clouded my mind of all the possibility that we could be or what we can be in the future and it makes my heart crave for her more.
It hurts even more when fame hits us, endorsement, prescon, individual projects and guesting. In the middle of our practice prior to our book guesting after we released Melting. CEO Nam pays us a visit, he asked us how are we and if are we good, and so on and just before he left "Kim Yong Sun we got an offer for you at WGM (We Got Married), we don't know who will be your spouse yet but we need to talked about it sooner" After 5-6 months the episode of Solar and Eric Nam will be aired, of course we discuss it as a group. And whatever project was laid to us as long as it is for our good we don't say no, but I just couldn't bear the feeling of being ripped alive. Wheein and Hyejin were of course so happy for Solar and it only adds up the crushing pain in my heart. I don't know how long I could take it but I always consider the girls first before my own. The show will run 3 months, just for 3 months I tell myself just endure it like I always do, it's still the same they, she would never know.
END OF FLASHBACK
So, what do you think? I should at least give it a try, right? I mean unlike before when they opted for us to the typical relationship, we are now more open and somehow recognized. Solar blurted out
As I say, whatever makes you happy I always got your back and you've known each other since Queendom days, right? I think it's already been a while, she just wanted to make it official that she had her eyes on you. Like a knife slowly killing me, all these years I try not to get swayed with my emotion but this one is just so hard. I just wanted to walk away and leave this place. I just wanted to cry it out loud, for how long will I keep this distance and emotion.
We stayed a little longer to catch up and enjoy another cup of coffee. We talked about what we had done when we all decided to part ways. Solar, Wheein and Hwasa signed contracts with other agencies, I totally leave the lime light to pursue the business of my parents. Everything is well in the company and the progress was faster when I totally took place and ran the company.
So, tell me how you are? How was everything? We haven't heard from you since our 8th anniversary, we tried to reach you on our last 9th get together but you're out of the country. Looks like we got the millionaire Byulah!!!
Oh well nothing much, I need to go overseas every now and then for future branch out of the company. No target date yet but soon hopefully. I might make it this 10th celebration if you'll held one, I'll make time for it, promise. Yong is smiling ear to ear. Finally, we're complete this time I'll inform the girls regarding this and let's plan this a week prior. How about we go out of town like the one we did in our documentary? What do you think?
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