Where have you been?

See you again

Author's note
Me: makes a post saying I upload on Friday.
Also me: Proseeds to forget to upload on Friday.
Sorry for being a little late, I hope you enjoy the chapter.

Adam was laying in the darkness. He had no idea what time it was, but he felt like it wasn't morning yet, so he tried to relax. Yet, he couldn't. He knew that, eventually, the morning would come and his torment would continue. He wanted to go home. He wanted see James again. He missed the blonde so badly. And these experiments only made it worse. It made him constantly feel worried for the blonde, even though he knew James was safe at home. But how safe?
'Don't think like that!' Adam said to himself, breaking the silence he both hated and loved. Rather silence than the torture those scientists put him through. But rather distraction than being left with his own mind. His mind that he knew was starting to get messed up. He wished he could talk to someone, but he hadn't seen another human being in what felt like months. He'd lost all sense of time.
'I wished I could talk to you, Angel.' Adam said. If he couldn't talk to anyone that was really there, he could talk to someone that wasn't there. To the person he missed so much. The person he loved so much.
'I'm glad you're not here, I wouldn't want you to go through this too, but I wished I could see you again. I wished I could get out of here and come back to you. I tried, but they weren't kidding with those controlled shocks. And even if those shocks weren't a thing, there's no way out of here. My mind is starting to get paranoid. I'm constantly thinking that everyone I care about is in danger or something, I don't know. This whole place is fricking up my mind. I can barely tell the difference between what is real and what isn't. I'm trying to talk to myself less, because I don't wanna go crazy, but if I don't get out of here soon, I'm afraid that what they're doing to me will be enough to make me lose all of my sanity. The last time the line between reality and my mind seemed so thin, was all the way back when we were just dating. When I was high on those painkillers. Do you remember that, James? My minds own insanity seemed real and reality seemed false. But that wore off in less than a day. This has been going on for... I don't even know how long. I miss you, James. I miss you so much. I miss the innocent times where we were just goofing around and weren't in this mess yet. Those moment where we were just having so much fun that we didn't think of other problems. Moments like that first night I took you to the cliff. That beautiful place. Our place. So much happened there. I wished I could take you there again. I'd look you deep in the eyes, hold your hand, tell you that I love you and kiss you on those pretty lips of yours. I wished I could hold you again, Angel. Hold you and tell you everything is okay.'
A couple tears escaped his eyes as his voice started to crack with emotion.
'I miss you. I miss you, James. I miss you so much. I love you so much. I can't deal with being away from you like this. I want you back.' He sobbed, grabbing his pillow and hugging it.
'The only thing I see in my mind when I'm about to fall asleep is your face. It's the first thing I see when I wake up. And I can only think of how much I wanna see it in real life again. How much I wanna see you again. Kiss you. Hold you. Snuggle up with you. Love you. But I can't! I FRICKING CAN'T!' Adam sobbed. He was getting to emotional to be able to speak. Instead he cried, hugging his pillow tightly as he missed his little angel so much.
The lights on the ceiling turned on and Adam looked up in fear.
"No!" He tought. "No, it can't be morning yet! No!"

'Hey, everybody. I know, I know. Another video that has my face instead of a funny marshmallow cartoon. Don't worry, the next animation should be up in a couple days. I just wanted to make this to let you guys know something. The video I made about Adam going missing had amazing support. I wanna thank everyone that left a supportive comment, it's really sweet that you all care so much. But today I wanted to bring you some good news. As much as people were starting to lose hope, things took a turn recently when a police officer called me and told me that...'
James grabbed Adam's arm and pulled him in front of the camera.
'Adam is back!' James exclaimed happily. Adam waved at the camera shyly. He and James had decided not to tell the audience about Adam's problems with speaking and trusting. That meant however that Adam had to be in front of the camera in silence, without making it look unnatural. They decided to keep the video short, so it wouldn't be that weird if he didn't talk.
'I know you all probably have a lot of questions, but please don't bombard us asking what happened. You can probably imagine it's not something we like to talk about. Because of all the worry in the comments of my last video, I figured I'd update you guys on the fact that he's back, he's safe and he's okay. Now, that's about all I have to say so, be ready for the next animation, drink enough water and wear your seatbelt!'
James ran up to the camera and stopped the recording.
'It's short, so editing should be quick.' He said as he sat down at his desk, opening his computer. Suddenly there was a knock on the door.
'Come in!' James called.
'Hey, I just wanted to say that we'll be leaving for the night. There's leftover pizza in the fridge if you get hungry. See you guys tomorrow.' Dexter said as he opened the door.
'See ya.' James replied and Adam just waved a little awkwardly. Dexter and Sarah were going out on a date that night. They had decided to leave in the early afternoon and go to spend the night somewhere else. It had been a little weird for Adam to live with Sarah and Dexter again. James was still the only person he felt comfortable with. The only person that he could be near, without feeling like his brain was playing tricks. Adam had never been that close to Sarah and Dexter either. Sure, he cared about them and was very grateful for everything they had done for him, but he always felt like he had to make sure they wouldn't replace his own father and mother. Sure his mom was dead and he didn't see his dad that much because they were both busy, but still. That didn't mean that Sarah and Dexter weren't like family to Adam. After all they were James's parents. Or at least his adoptive parents. To Adam they felt like a mother in law and a father in law. Even though he and James weren't married.

James just uploaded the video when the doorbell rang. Floof immediately started barking downstairs. Adam glanced through the bedroom window and saw a familiar someone in front of the door underneath him. It was Caleb.
'You wanna come with me?' James asked hesitantly as he looked down through the window as well.
Adam shook his head and sat back down. He hadn't talked to Caleb since that first day he was back. Or rather, Caleb talked to him. James left the room and Adam sat down next to the window again. He looked down to see the door open and James come outside. Adam could see the blonde talking to Caleb, but even with the window slightly open, he couldn't hear what they were saying.  After a bit Adam started to get impatient. James and Caleb had been talking for a while now, and he kinda didn't like the way James laughed so much with whatever it was that Caleb was saying. Adam cared about his brother of course, but he kinda wished he would leave. Adam saw Caleb pull out his phone. Apparently someone was calling him. After Caleb hung up he said something to James and pointed at his car.
"Finally, he's about to leave." Adam thought. He felt guilty as soon as he thought it. Why couldn't he just stop being afraid of the people he cared about. He knew he wasn't annoyed with his brother. He was annoyed that he couldn't join in the happy conversation. To say their goodbyes, Caleb pulled James into an embrace. Suddenly Adam forgot all the things he just realized. He didn't like this, he didn't like this at all.
"It's just a hug. Friends give each other hugs the entire time. You've never had a problem with it before when Jaiden, Maaz or Becca gave him a hug. That's what friends do." Adam thought, but he couldn't help but get irritated and frustrated, until he couldn't stand to see it anymore. He got up and ran out of the room. He rushed down the stairs and through he front door, where he almost tackled Caleb into an embrace, forcing his brother to let go of the blonde.
Both James and Caleb were shocked for a moment, before Caleb wrapped his arms around his older brother as well.
'Does that mean you're not afraid of me anymore?' Caleb asked, not fully able to hide the emotion in his voice.
Only then did Adam realize what he was doing. Yet, he didn't feel scared or uncomfortable. He didn't feel like his mind was messing with him. He knew he was holding his little brother. He nodded, not sure if Caleb would notice, as he pulled away and finally looked his brother in the eyes again.
'I've missed you, AJ.' Caleb smiled. Adam took the notepad from his pocket.

You're not getting rid of your big brother that easily.

He smirked when Caleb looked up from the words he had written, making his brother laugh.
'Come here!' Caleb smiled as he pulled his older brother into another embrace.