He couldn't believe his eyes. His own bestfriend was there, but she was fading away from his grasp. He shook his head. "Renjun wake up, it's probably just your imagination." He didn't know what to do. his brain was in a state of panic. It wasn't what he thought. It wasn't what he thought. but every theory ended up being unlogical making him fustrated.
He was annoyed, he didn't know what the petal meant, he knew though, deep inside he knew what was going on. But did he want to accept it? absolutely not. He didn't want to accpet the fact that his best friend had the disease. he never wanted to accept it in the first place.
He was scared. He felt vulnerable at that moment. What will he do if he ever lost her? Lost her to the guy who stood in the middle of 4 people? He was mad. He was fustrated. He felt all negative emotions at once.
Renjun stared at Jaemin with eyes that held emotions, emotions he never learnt how to explain. "Renjun what's wrong you look like your about to burst and cry?" Jaemin asked him concerned and Renjun shook his head. "huh? oh it's nothing" Renjun rubbed his eyes right after aming Jaemin cock a brow at him.
Renjun needed a truth, he wanted the truth.
Was he a shit best friend for never noticing how disheartened she looked a few days ago? was he a shit bestfriend for putting her aside? He started feeling guilty. He never wished for this to happen, but he knew why in the bottom of his heart.
It was him. it was all because of him.
-focus change-
Jeno and Youngmin found a safe spot for her to let the petals out. Every time this happened it seemed as if hot tears would roll down her soft cheeks. Jeno sighed next to her, now he has no bag to use. Guess he'll just have to carry a bag with petals she puked. A bit unsanitary but it was all he could do in the moment.
Jeno stared at her tired figure which sat down next to his standing figure with a zipped up backpack. she sighed. "I want all of this to stop Jen. I really do" she hid her face in her palms. Lately she has been puking more than usual, striking a worry in Mark and Jeno.
They stared at the lockers infront of them in silence. "Do you think he would care if i died?" Jeno looked down at the sudden question, looking at her tear stained cheeks made his heart hurt more. "He would've Min. Even though you two might not be close friends, I'm sure he cares." He replied honestly.
"...Everything suddenly seems to go by so fast, i can't even comprehend the fact that i caught the disease" There was no movement from her, but he listened to her. "I feel like i'm limiting myself more to do stuff i shouldn't do in order i don't get hurt even more."
"...I miss my parents" Those words shook Jeno. "Min-" "I want to go meet them Jen" Jeno didn't know what to say. Her parents were dead. She looked up to meet his eyes which were widened in shock. "What are you talking about Mi-" "I'm not taking the surgery." Jeno's world collapsed. He made sure he heard that correct. "Pardon me?"
"I'm not taking the surgery." Those words were like knives piercing into his heart, making him stand up straight keeping the eye contact. "Min isn't it too early to make a decision...?" His voice sounded fragile and hurt.
"...it maybe is for you, but i'm ready for it. i'm ready to finally see my parents again." her voice was shaky, but steady enough for him to understand. "Min. No i won't let you! i won't ever let you-" "Jeno. I understand that you care for me, but really though, I'm just a distraction in your life."
Jeno had no words, he was sniffing a lot. he was crying. She knew he desicion would hurt, But everything was going according to plan, just twisted a bit. Though through all the hurt, she still miled. she smiled at him softly.
"Don't cry, I'll always be here when I'm gone."
-after school-
The two reunited with the group of crackhead, but as the moment they arrived, renjun walked away, out the door he goes. The two were confused as of what happened between the 5 friends who they left behind.
"What happened to him?" She asked chenle who calmly answer back, "I don't know but he has been cranky the whole day. who the fuck knows what happened with him" Chenle only shrugged, going back to the conversation with Jisung -- which was chaos by the way.
"I have a idea, why don't we chase him?" Haechan nodded and walked fowards, the others following his steps. "Huang Renjun~" Haechan said in a sing-song voice cause renjun to stop and look back. He saw her and turned away making Youngmin confused.
"Damn who got you into a mood?" She said sighed walking fowards, she was about to reach but she froze in her spot hearing his next words.
"Youngmin Do you have the Hanahaki disease?"
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petals. -𝘕𝘑𝘔.
Short Story[*short story*] Hanahaki disease; The disease of unrequited love, flowers will bloom in your lungs and you will cough out petals. It will block out your air and cause death, unless you take surgery to get the flowers removed. But the memories of the...
