Discovering Aya

4

Living with Aya has become a test of character for Ambrose, his whole being aches as he fights for control. The bones in the man's hands hurt constantly as he fights himself not to touch her. It is the middle of the night and he cannot sleep, his every thought invaded by her presence, Aya is driving him out of his mind. He looks over at her, his frustration apparent on his countenance; he envies her obliviousness and the fact that's she sleeps so soundly in his bed when he cannot. 

While he is struggling for composure, she seems ever so composed. How he would delight in the opportunity to rest as she did now, worrying for nothing. Why, he was almost envious of her. 

Indignantly, he rises from his bed in surrender deciding that he will sleep on the floor. This is crazy, she is drawn to him; even when he attempts to hide from her, she finds him. He will not lose control, he refuses to dishonor her. He is a strong man and with her he needs to be stronger- he  refuses to be slave to his desires. He is a man of integrity and honor, he will wait.

It cannot be impossible to hold him back. Surely, his self control is what set him apart from any other common beast. His ability to not be driven by instinct alone, that, made him more than just a beast. He wanted to know her more, to discover everything he could about her.  

She has just met him and all he knows is her name, though he has become acquainted with a few of her habits. His favorite is how affectionate she is with him, thought it makes it difficult to control himself at times, it at least confirms that she is attracted to him in the same way he is attracted to her and he knows that it is not because of some mate bond. Which is an oddly satisfying awareness. 

He realizes he does not want his mate to simply be attracted to him because of some pull... What he desires is to love her and to be loved by her in return.

The solitary alpha blessed with a mate, despite all his efforts to avoid her, she had been delivered to the gates of his territory, and now he desires for her to love him in the same way he wants to love her. He realizes in that moment they will need to sleep in separate quarters if he can not control the thoughts in his mind. 

Ambrose fights daily to keep his attention from drifting to focusing on how pleasant she is to look at. Her lips are a deep plum color and her chocolate eyes always sparkled. Having not seen brown eyes often, he did not know that he finds them attractive; not once in her short time here did she fail to draw him in with her captivating gaze. 

By her- he will gladly be drawn in anytime.

He closes his eyes to pray, "please help me, I feel like I am losing control. I really don't know what to do. I need to find where she came from... can you show me how to love her, I know I'm far from perfect. I want to love her the way you want me to. Help me to show her how grateful I am that you have blessed me with a gift like her, show me how to cherish and help her grow." 

He falls asleep immediately after he prays his prayer and when he is deep in his sleep, he dreams of her; He sees' her swimming in the the ocean in a place he does not recognize and he sees' people around her that look like she does some off their eyes are different and some have different complexion, all of them are happy and all of them are laughing- but it is her laughter that catches his attention, he's never heard anything even close to it. Did it make her happy to swim?

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Author's Note

I hope you can forgive the shortness of this chapter. Unfortunately, I couldn't write as much as I wanted to and still keep my weekly update promise, for that I am truly sorry. There were technical difficulties which prevented me from creating a new chapter. I did end up putting in a ticket through the help center and after a few attempts to identify the cause of this problem it was resolved though it did take more time then I originally imagined. This is all I had managed to write before the issue started so I will post it. I will make it up to you all.

- Love you.