Ryan's POV.
She said , " It wasn't a vacation. My mom wasn't well , so we just had to go."
I pretended that it was alright with her not telling me.
Why did she go. Why didn't she tell me ? I would've had her that day had she not gone to her mother.
'I thought someone said that they love her.' My conscience yelled at me.
I did but I just wanted to be in place of Josh. I wanted to be the one to kiss her , to squeeze her butt , to make her moan. I wanted to have her all to myself.
'what're you talking about ,you dick. You love her. You don't want her for her body.' my conscience reminded me.
I don't know what was going on. Did I love her for real or was it just my lust and I wanted to hide it in the name of love ?
What had gotten into me ? I had to get her. TODAY. NOW. But it wouldn't be possible.
Jake wouldn't let it happen.
I felt like a looser. I claimed to 'love' this girl for three years and it was just for this lust ?
What was wrong. I was just becoming one of those jerks. Couldn't I see past her body. I had to. I loved her.
Was I forcing this on myself. I had to get a hang of my feelings and I had to do it FAST.
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Bittersweet Love
ChickLitRebecca Walker was the hopeless romantic. The popular girl at school with rich and powerful parents , a loving brother and two of the bestest friends. Jake, her brother had made her feel loved. Their parents were always gone for business work and me...
