If I Could Go Back In Time (BoyxBoy)

Three

January 2nd, 2015

Azriel, Bambi, Aanya, and I all took the Pottermore test and each of us got into a different house. Aanya got Gryffindor, and NONE of us were surprised. Bambi is in Slytherin, and at first, she was upset because she thought it was the bad house, but I had to explain to her that it's like how a strawberry is a fruit, but not all fruits are strawberries. Most villains are Slytherin, but that doesn't mean that everyone in Slytherin is bad, especially not someone like Bambi. Then there's Azriel, who got the house Ravenclaw. I was expecting Slytherin due to his ambition like Bambi's, but I know how much he values knowledge and learning. Plus, his creativity is amazing. I got Hufflepuff. I want to help people, so it makes sense. I'm also very loyal, I won't ever turn my back on someone. I know you never cared to watch the movies, so you probably don't know what any of these mean, but I still wanted to share.

I ordered all of us shirts of our individual houses. They're supposed to get here today and I'm so excited to surprise them tomorrow! Another fun coincidence is that we all have different ethnicities. You and dad are of African descent, even though you're technically from the Dominican Republic, Aanya's parents are from China, Bambi is from Mexico, and Azriel's whole family is from all over Europe. We call ourselves the 'Round The World Quadruplets now. I really do like these people. You'd be so happy if you found out I finally made a friend, let alone three. It all happened so fast. I asked God for good friends this new year and he already made it happen. It's incredible.

I feel like this journal is a way for me to share things with you that I wouldn't be able to share if I didn't have it, since you aren't around anymore. Dad was really affected by the crash. When he woke up in the hospital asking for you, they had to tell him that you were gone. I already knew. I was the one that survived in the backseat. I watched you and dad be taken away in the ambulance. It wasn't fair, momma. I couldn't save you.

I thought I wouldn't be able to pick myself up again, but I suddenly don't feel so alone anymore. The 'Round The World Quadruplets are now my new family. I feel like I belong. Thank you, mom.

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January 2nd, 2020/2015 for the second time???

It was weird reliving this day. I haven't seen Aanya this happy since I met her the first time. She got into drugs real bad. She couldn't get out of it, now matter how much we tried to help her.

Aanya hasn't yet found drugs.

Bambi hasn't yet fallen in love with Azriel.

Azriel hasn't yet left us for that damn job.

I haven't yet lost my leg.

It's nice to be able to walk properly again. I started to experience phantom pain, some of the worst pain I've ever felt in my life. I just wanted it all to end. I wanted to hear like normal and walk like normal, but that would be impossible. My temporary hearing loss affected my permanent auditory abilities. My temporary lost leg affected my permanent walking abilities. If only I hadn't driven drunk, I wouldn't have suffered the way I did.

But apparently that's in the past- or, the future? I can't tell. I seem to have traveled in time. Luckily, I keep my class schedules, so I know through a paper what my next class is.

This isn't fair, mom. Why would you do this to me? Why would you put me through this?