𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐓 - 𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘𝐊 𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐀 (discontinued)

10 : comfort

MONDAY, OCTOBER 17
3 : 52 am

vallyk is sleeping and im just silently crying all because of derek, that whole meetup things was the worst idea ever

FLASHBACK

i made it to the garden and it was empty, only derek was in there just sitting on a bench looking at his phone

i walked in and he stood up slipping his phone in his back pocket looking up at me. my body felt nervous. weird right

"destiny, we need to both cut the bull crap because this all happened years ago" he said with a serious eye roll

"its not easy derek.." i mumbled looking at the ground nervously. "you dont understand what happened afterwards"

"yes i do know what happened afterwards, you cried and then ariella comforted you along with peyton" he said

"no derek that didnt quite happen, it did but it's not what im talking about" i mumbled softly

"oh my gosh, what could have possibly happened for you to hate me so much but not vallyk and mike" he snapped

" i tried to kill myself derek because i felt like no one cared about me anymore, you made me feel like that!" i snapped back

"its all your fault because you lied on me and made me lose my three only friends that i thought i would grow up with" i said

"thats why i hate you so much because what you caused was cruel, what you did was selfish derek, and you can go tell the world about it" i said

"no one knew except my family and vallyk but now you know so might as well let the whole universe know" i snarled

"dont talk to me ever again derek, when we're out with our friends, only talk to them not me. dont even look at me" i said

"you have a nerve to come to me acting like i am wrong when im not" i mumbled

"i. hate. you." i said before walking out of the garden. anger and sadness filled my whole entire body

END OF FLASHBACK

im a very sensitive person but i hide it a lot, no one has ever seen me cry. not even my own parents

its very rare to see me cry. peyton and ariella hasnt seen me cry since seventh grade, my parents havent seen me cry since eighth grade

thats why peyton was so shocked to see that one tear roll down my face because its not likely that you will ever see me cry

landon is the only one who seen me cry before because he was always there. we have a good relationship so i trust him

i finished packing some of my clothes in the bag when i heard a loud groan causing me to look up making eye contact with vallyk

"destiny... are you crying? whats wrong bubby" he got up from his bed walking over to me. he kneeled down wrapping his arms around me

im surprised he called me bubba this time, its kinda weird having him call me that and i think he feels the same. it was better when we were kids

normally we call eachother our nicknames like i call him val, or bestie and he calls me des, dessy, or bestie but never bubba

mike still calls me that and when he does, i never cringe but with vallyk i do so he never calls me that

"no- i just dont wanna ever see him again vallyk, he shouldnt be mad at me for emotionally avoiding him" i cried

"everytime im around him, it just comes rushing back to me making me relive the whole thing" i mumbled

"its gonna be okay des, dont worry about this at all because it will get totally better, just cry it all out right now" he whispered. "im here"

"its not gonna get better because i have to be around him all the time since we literally have the same friends" i cried

"your right but look, just dont worry about it right now des, dont stress about it too much" he rubbed my shoulder leaning his head on mine

i hate that i was crying right now but this was something i was holding in for forever, not because of the situation but because i never cry

ive came across so many tears worthy things but just never cried about it so now im letting the built up tears out

"how about you and me both go to sleep because we both have a flight in a few hours" he said and i nodded

i got up and walked to my bed getting under the covers comfortablely. the lights turned off and i felt presence next to me

comfortable presence making me drift off to sleep

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