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''Ikaw, wala kang kwenta! Sana talaga pinalaglag kana lang noon ng mama mo eh!" sigaw sak'in ni Papa.
Lasing na naman siyang umuwi.
Tahimik akong umiiyak sa sulok habang nakaupo sa sahig. Kinakabahan, natatakot sa kung anong pwede niyang gawin sak'in.
Tumayo siya mula sa pagkakaupo sa sofa at kumuha ng kutsilyo sa kusina bago lumapit sak'in.
Mas lalo akong umiyak at nagsimulang manginig sa takot.
Hindi niya ako sasaktan, anak niya 'ko.
Nang magkatapat na kami, itinutok niya sakin ang kutsilyo.
''Papatayin mo ang sarili mo o papatayin kita?'' nakangising tanong niya.
Sweating and trembling, i woke up again from my nightmare.
Naupo ako sa kama at tumingin sa labas ng bintana.
Ayoko na, pagod na 'ko. Kailan ba matatapos to?
Huminga ako ng malalim at tumayo para uminom ng tubig.
Maybe this is the right time to visit a psychologist?
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Kahit labag sa loob ko, pinilit ko pa rin na lumabas ng condo.
Usually, pinapadeliver ko na lang lahat ng kailangan ko sa bahay, pagkain man o gamit.
I don't wanna go anywhere outside of my condo unit. But now, my mom forced me.
Nasa elevator pa lang ako pero kinakabahan na 'ko. Siguradong maraming tao doon.
Sumakay ako sa front seat ng kotse 'ko.
After a couple of mintues, nakarating na ko sa event place. Thankfully, wala masyadong traffic.
Today is the 7th birthday of my one and only niece, my sister's daugther. Actually, my plan was, I won't attend her celebration. I'll just say that I'm busy because I have so many projects. Then, I'll just go to our house before midnight to greet my niece and give her my gift.
But then, my mom called me and threatened me if I won't go to her birthday celebration.
I dont have a fucking choice but to go. And now here I am, eating a dessert.
Trembling and sweating, but I still continue what I am doing.
Argh, I hate this feeling. It feels like everyone here is looking at me while I'm eating, observing me and judging me.
FUCK, I NEED TO BREATHE!
Nang hindi ko na kinaya, tumayo ako at nagmamadaling dumiretso sa comfort room.
Habol 'ko ang hininga ng makapasok sa loob.
ARGH! I'M SICK OF THIS.
I would set an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow. I need to.
It took me a couple of minutes before I went outside the comfort room.
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Two persons with mental health issues, would they understand each other?
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