Waada Raha

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Sidharth – I’m sorry papa …

Ashok shocked hearing papa … But stayed silent so he continue …

Sidharth – I know main acha beta nai ban paya hun par ab na promise karta hun banke dikhaunga … aap Jo bologe, jaise bologe wahi karunga … bachpan se leke abhi Tak bas galtiyan he ki hai Maine … ek baar sirf moka dedo … pahle bhi jab apne muj un doston se baat karne se roka tabi bhi Maine apko galat samja … sab bolte the Tere papa sautele hai, pyar nai karenge … hostel bej denge aur bhi bahut kuch … Main nai manta tha but jab apne muj wo parcel ke time pakra tha fir mara bhi tha sath main hostel bejne ke liye Bola tha … tabi muj un sabki baten sahi lagti thi isliye main … Maine apni galti dekhne ki bajaye apko galat samjta raha...  Aur jab preeti di ko apne slap Kiya wo time pe bhi bahut gussa Aya tha that apne unko Kun Mara … but muj pata chal gaya Kun tha par muj tab ye sab samj he nai Aya … pahli baar cigrate aur alcohol ko hath lagaya apne roka but tabi bhi Maine apse batameezi ki thi … Aap to mere liye he soch rahe the par mere dimag main ek sautele shabad ki nafat itni Bari Hui thi … ki main ye Tak dekh nai paya ki aap mere ache ke liye bol rahe ho, aur apko he itna kuch Bolta Raha par Apne kabi kuch nai Bola … main sirf galtiyan karta Gaya aur aapne ya to usko nazar andaz Kiya ya to Chuppa Diya jaise ladke ko Mara tha aur apne case close karwaya … aur ye main Jo kuch bhi Kar raha hun bol Raha hun maa ke bolne pe nai main khud se bol Raha hun … Muj Meri galti ka ahisaas hai … main apse promise karta hun alcohol and cigrate ko hath bhi nai lagaunga aaj ke baad … bas ek baar beta bolke muj gale laga do … please papa … apka jab ye accident hua na main bahut dar gaya tha … apko kho na dun … bas yahi laga rahta tha apko hosh aa Jaye … apke accident se pahle se main try kar raha tha apse baat karne ki par Jo Maine kiya hai uske baad muj main himath he nai thi apse nazren milane ki … main Sach main acha beta banke dikhaunga … aur apko disappoint bikul nai karunga … apko agar saza Deni hai to aap wo bhi dedo I will accept it … but please ek baar  … I truly regret when I told you don’t call me son … it was my mistake … main apko kitna bhi bol lun baap nai ban sakte … par Sach to yahi hai aap ho mere papa … By holding ears … I’m really very sorry papa … he putted his head on Ashok’s knees and was crying so much and holded his hands again … but Ashok moved back his hands …

Sidharth thought he is not forgiving him …

Sidharth – please … apko marna hai Marlo but please khudse dur mat karna … I’m ashamed of my behavior with you … muj pata hai past main Jo kiya usko thik nai Kar sakta but abi waise galti na karun ye to ho sakta hai na …

Ashok stood from his seat … Sidharth holded his knees …

Sidharth – please kuch to boliye … aise Kun ja rahe aap …

But Ashok freed himself and went from there … here Sidharth broke down he was crying mess … after sometime Ashok came back with file and forwarded to Sidharth …

Sidharth – ye Kya hai …

Ashok – khud he dekh lo …

Sidharth saw the file and said – muj ye sab nai chahiye … what I said before I truly mean it … I’m not doing that for this … If you are not forgiving me now, it’s ok I will try to prove myself to you to gain your forgiveness … but ye sab muj nai chahiye … Main ye sab iske liye nai Kar raha … I really want to be a good son … please papa …

Sidharth’s eyes were still moist and little red due to crying … he was going to his room when Ashok said …

Ashok – baap bol Raha hai fir aise Kun jaa raha haar manke …

Sidharth turned and said

Sidharth – Maine haar nai Mani … I will try again … till you don’t forgive me …

Ashok – but right now you are running from me … instead of fighting …

Sidharth – why should I fight …

Ashok – to get forgiveness….

Sidharth – agar fight se mil bhi gayi to wo Pyar nai hoga usmain jiske liye muj crave hai …

Ashok – agar uss pyar ke pahle he main Marr gaya to …

Sidharth – aap aise Kun bol rahe ho … apko kuch nai hoga naa he main kuch hone dunga …

Ashok – itna confidence

Sidharth – kunki main apne papa ko nai khona chahta … muj pata hai Maine bahut kuch life main galat kiya hai unke sath par ab main wo sab sudarna chahta hun … apne papa ke sath jeena chahta hun … unke Pyar ke liye kuch bhi Kar lunga …

Ashok – to abi tak gale Kun nai lagaya agar itna he khudko sudarna hai to …

Sidharth – matlab apne … Apne Sach main muj maaf kar Diya … aap Sach bol rahe ho …

Ashok – Han mere Bache...

Before Ashok could say further Sidharth embraced him tightly …

Sidharth – I love you papa … I love you so much …  and I’m sorry to hurt you so much with my words … I’m promise you I won’t do it again … Thank you for forgiving me … I promise I will be good son … so that you can be proud of me …

Ashok – bas mere Bache … abi Kun ro Raha hai … aur kisne kaha tune pahle proud nai karwaya … tune hamesha proud feel karwaya hai muj … ab bas kar ye chotte bachon ke jaise Rona … Han tune hurt Kiya tha apne words se but wo heat of the moment tha Maine kabi uske baad yaad he nai kiye … isliye ab past ko sochna band kar aur aaj main aja …

Sidharth – papa apne Sach main forgive Kiya na …

Ashok – Han mera bacha …

Sidharth – to fir apne wo papers …

Ashok laughed and said – wo file fake hai … main chah Kar bhi Tere naam pe kuch nai Kar sakta....

Sidharth – aisa Kun …

Ashok – kunki sab teri maa ke naam pe hai … mere nai … Aur uske baad Tere bachon ke naam hoga jitne honge ek ya do equally …

Sidharth – muj to ye bhi nai pata tha … pata nai muj aur Kya Kya nai pata …

Ashok smiled on this and After that both were in living area and were sharing things and were trying to know each other…