16/03/21. 9:59PM
I made a promise yesterday, a promise to do more, be more productive. At the time I meant it, but when it came to actually doing it it was too much. I didn't even think about it, just brushed it off, never gave it a second thought, then just went on with my day completely ignoring the promise I had made.
19/03/21. 5:43PM
I barely wrote the other day, and I can't use me being busy as an excuse. I was working on school work and only school work these past few days, I kept telling myself that I'd have time and energy to do more but I was wrong. I needed to clean my room and do chores, as well as make some time to do some crafts that I enjoy. I haven't been sleeping or staying inside my room because of how dirty it is, what sucks is that it used to be dirtier and I was able to live with it. I used to never leave my room cause I wanted some privacy, now can't even open the door. I'm lucky enough to have a couch that's big enough to fit me though, although it does get hot at night.
I made a promise to myself as well. I told myself I'd watch the sunset everyday because it calms me down and that's what I need, not to hard of a task, right? I thought so too, but I'm currently still seated on the couch typing this while I can see the colours of the sunset at the corner of my eye. I guess that's good enough, isn't it? It's still relaxing, a little bit. I like the way the baby blue sky start turning orange on one end and dark blue the other, and how you can see your shadow getting longer when you walk against the direction the sun is setting. I could sit down and watch it set for a whole hour until it's completely out of sight, until the stars further away take over the night sky. I wish I didn't live in the city so I could see the transition of the stars. From one big one, our sun, to thousands of tiny ones that look like spilt glitter on a dark blue carpet. I hope I get to live in a place that will allow me to see that one day.
