27/03/2020. 10:10PM
Lately, I've been feeling alone. Misunderstood. Left out. Whenever I try and talk, I get dismissed, and lately I've been talking about my problems, my feelings, my emotions. I've been opening up, which is something I hate doing. Every time I do it, people don't understand the intensity of the situation, they treat it like a normal conversation. They interrupt me while I'm talking about things that don't relate to what I'm saying, either that or they just nod their heads and go "mmm". I know some people aren't comfortable with these types of conversations but, I only up to people I'm close to, which is why it hurts more.
I've decided to stop speaking, stop making conversation, stop opening up. It's all useless. It's not worth it. I don't have anyone. Maybe they just don't care enough. Not one person truly cares, and it's obvious, and it hurts. People on social media always say shit like " You're not alone." But I fucking am.
Quarantine hasn't been helping with this situation as well. I can't go out to see my friends. And, when I try to, they don't want to, but they make plans with other people. Maybe it's just me. It's probably me. It's nothing new, I'm used to being the problem, just haven't felt it in a while that's why it's getting to me now. Give me a month or two, I won't mind anymore. It's fine. I always liked being alone anyway.
