Every Rose Has Its Thorn

Part 2: Just Another Morning

-Midoriya's POV

U.A. It was the place I had been longing to go to, the place where everyone who has ever wanted to become a hero dreamed of going to. And here I stood, right at its doors. I never thought I would be able to go here or even step foot past the gate, especially with everyone telling me I couldn't be a hero. More specifically, they never said that I could be one. But here I was, not to prove them wrong, but to make them proud, proud instead of guilty. With the help of my idol All Might and a lot of hard work, I had made it this far.

I still remember how a few months ago, I was so excited to go to U.A. It was a dream come true. That was when I had all of those feelings. Hope, happiness, fulfillment. I've changed a lot since then, and those feelings were no longer with me. To anyone else, they were normal, but it was just a lost fantasy to grasp those feelings again. Sadly, I knew one of the things I was missing, but I could never obtain it, I couldn't even graze my finger upon it.

Kacchan. He was the missing gap in my heart, one that I probably could never fill. Kacchan hated my guts, but I admired him for his strength and bravery. It had grown into something more by the time I got into U.A though. However, only now was it making my heart ache. 

I knew that I could never have him, nor his ruby-red gaze or fluffy blond hair, or his well-defined body and his handsome features. I couldn't have any of it because he wouldn't have me. We were hardly even friends and he told me to kill myself too.

You should've just listened to him.

Heh, my depression is kicking in again. It twisted my thoughts up a lot, and though I was the brightest student in the class, I was also the darkest. I shoved a packet of anti-depression pills in my pocket just in case I desperately needed them, but I still avoided them at all costs because it made me feel worse once they wore off, and it was only a temporary solution to a never-ending problem. 

I was supposed to take them every day, but I only used them when I couldn't even fake a smile. I also had a packet of anxiety pills with me for if I was feeling anxious or was about to go into a panic attack.

I was thinking a lot while getting ready to go to school. I put on my uniform and finished tying the shoelaces on my iconic boots as well. Afterward, I went to the bathroom and tried to tame my hair but failed as usual, and went to fix my tie instead. After I did that, I put my notebook and other supplies in my backpack. I exited my dorm room, making sure to lock the door, and went to school.

My stomach grumbled a bit, so I stopped for some breakfast first. I planned to only eat a little since I was already fat and ugly. Maybe an apple or something. I'm pretty sure there were grapes as well. Whatever it is, I need it to be light and healthy.

After taking the elevator, I ended up in the kitchen, ready to eat breakfast in dead silence. Big mistake. Kacchan was already there, sitting all the way at the other end of the table, eating pancakes which I assumed he made. They looked delicious, but I snapped out of my cravings.

"Oi, shitty nerd, why are you going to school this early?"

"Oh, hi Kacchan. I was just going to edit my notes before class started." I grabbed some grapes from the fridge and put them in a bowl. There were 15 grapes in all, but it wasn't a lot. That was a good thing though. 

Once I finished washing the grapes, I sat down at the table to eat. I sat as far away from Kacchan as possible. Luckily, the table was long because it was for the entire class, and I could sit 20 feet away from him. I didn't want to tick him off more than I already have, and I didn't want him questioning my breakfast portions. Sadly, he still noticed.

"Oi, what the hell kind of breakfast is that? If you're going to eat fruit, then don't eat such a small amount.". I swallowed another grape and replied.

"It's fine, I'm not very hungry anyway." 

"Whatever." Kacchan rolled his eyes, which were outlined with eyeliner and mascara. We both sat at opposite ends of the table and I quickly ate my grapes so I could get out of there. I should've used my stupid thinking skills to analyze the situation though. 

I forgot that Kacchan was a fast eater and he was already halfway done when I arrived. I started to leave the table, but of course, I had to get up right before Kacchan did. He harshly pushed me aside so he could put his plate in the sink. I just rinsed off mine, and he gave me an even weirder look when he realized that I picked a bowl from the smallest set in the class's collection.

"K-Kacchan..." I rubbed my shoulder when he shoved me for a second time while leaving the sink. He glared at me as if daring for me to speak to him again. Of course, I didn't, and instead, I left the kitchen and briskly walked to school. 

I felt especially apprehensive today, and it was as if something bad could happen at any moment. It was sickening, but I shook it off slightly and continued to walk to school. It was just another morning in Musutafu after all. Another morning where people bustled about, another day where the sun shined, and another day where the sun would set.