Every Rose Has Its Thorn

Part 3: A Quick Trip to the Store

-Midoriya's POV

When I got to school, I noticed Iida was already there, and he saw that I looked worried, but he took it as a different emotion.

"Are you ok, Midoriya? You look tired." I quickly put a smile on my face and replied so he wouldn't suspect anything.

"I'm fine, I just went to sleep later than usual."

"Oh, ok. Make sure to get enough sleep or you will feel worn out the next day."

"Ok!" I took a seat and started to take notes, updating my former prompts as well.

Eventually, the rest of the class started arriving and chatting amongst their friends. Iida and Uraraka were speaking to each other since I was still taking notes, but I felt as if someone was watching me. I uncomfortably shifted in my seat and looked around slightly, but no one seemed to be looking at me. The aura was still there and it was starting to make me feel uneasy. I shouldn't, but it seems like I'm feeling especially on edge today. I cautiously took out the packet of anxiety pills and popped one in my mouth, making sure no one was looking.

"That should help a little." I mumbled as I put the packet back in my pant pocket and continued to do my notes, only to realize that the pills didn't seem to work. Don't they have an immediate effect? It's already been a few minutes.

I took out a packet of pills, but I saw that they were bright yellow. Nope, those are the anti-depressants. I took the other packet out, which had white pills, one of the pods already empty since I just took one. Another one couldn't hurt, right? I quickly downed another one and put the packet back again. I felt really dizzy for a second but managed to grab a hold of myself before anyone could notice. The worst part was, it still felt like someone was watching me.

-Bakugo's POV

It was really weird that Deku only had a small bowl of grapes for breakfast. In fact, it was surprising because when we were 4, he got hungry a lot. With all of that damn training he has been doing, he would've scarfed down 2 bowls of cereal and still have room for something. But he didn't. Instead, he took one of those small shitty bowls that are meant for rice. I noticed he didn't even finish a single vine of grapes. What the actual fuck?!

It got even weirder when I went to class. I sat behind Deku, but he didn't seem to notice my presence. Whatever, I only blame the new seating chart for the class. I used to sit in front of Midoriya, but somehow I still ended up near him even though the entire seating was jumbled around. I decided to watch Deku out of boredom. There had to be something amusing that he would do. Maybe he'll magically fall out of his seat somehow.

As I watched him, I noticed he became less concentrated in his notes and more fidgety. About time, because I had already been watching him for a few minutes and was about to step in to make my own entertainment. Then he did something that really surprised me. 

He took out a packet of pills and popped one in his mouth. I couldn't tell what kind they were though. A few minutes later, he reached for his pocket again. This time, I saw the color of the pills since he was holding them at an angle. They were yellow.

We had been taking lessons like a normal school since we needed regular education as well, and Recovery Girl had given a few classes on health and drugs and shit. I fucking aced those classes and learned everything that she taught us. The pills Deku was holding were yellow and seemed to be anti-depressants. Apparently, the color was supposed to give a happier effect or some shit, but why would the nerd need those?

It wasn't over yet, because Deku put them back in his pocket and took out a different packet, which was missing a pill in one space. Luckily, he had it on the side that showed what was inside the pods instead of the side with the foil-like covering. The pills were white, and if I were to guess correctly, they would be anxiety pills. He popped another one in his mouth, and he looked slightly dizzy for a second because his head dropped down a little, but he eventually went back to his notes. 

The rest of the day was as boring as shit, but I couldn't take my mind off of what I had seen in the morning. For once, I decided not to bother Deku. I didn't care about his mental health or anything, I just didn't feel like giving him trouble at the moment.

-Midoriya's POV

I got back to the dorms and the pills had worn off, but luckily the aura did too. I was now alone in my room, the once white walls covered in All MIght Posters were now dark gray and empty. I moved my All Might merch back home as well. The room was exceptionally empty for the most part.

 I sighed, the only light in my room came from the window, and as the sun started to go down, I sat in overcoming darkness. I didn't feel like turning the light on right now. I was isolated in my room, as the remaining sunlight cascaded across the room. I started to think about a lot of negative things, or more like my mind did. The voices in my head weren't helping either.

Fat. You should lose more weight, you pig!

Ugly. You should be grateful you even still called a human!

Fake. Look at you, faking a smile when no one even cares!

JUST DIE! WASTE OF FLESH!

Why can't I just be normal? It's such a waste of a life to be a human like me. My hair looks like the color of sludge and my eyes look like a dog's!

EXACTLY! Every negative thing in your life is one cut. Do it.

Wait no-

DO IT!

I was crying at this point. I stayed silent though. Getting up from my bed, I locked the door and reached for my nightstand drawer. I took out a blade that I had inside of the drawer, only to find that it was rusted. The kitchen was downstairs and the knives were everybody's, and we had our own designated showers, which I had my razor blade in. I would have to go out and buy another one. 

I decided to ask everyone if they needed anything from the store as well since I knew it would be weird for me to walk out of a shop with just a blade. I ended up needed to get some gum for Denki and an assortment of candy for Mina. It was all mostly candy, but Kacchan asked me if he could go with me as well. Actually, he kind of demanded more than asked.

"Eh? Why?"

"I'm just making sure that you buy everything you're supposed to."

"What? I have a list! And I've gone shopping before."

"...Fine, but bring back some chocolate for me."

"O-ok." I didn't get it. Kacchan was acting weird today. I ignored it though, and went to the store to buy some candy and a blade. The stars began to show in the sky as I walked in the settling night.