Tears » poetry by Anne Sofie Zaar

XXIX

Somewhere inbetwen cries and fake smiles

You sit, in your mind

Listering to nirvana - nevermind

And you try, listen, but the songs are nothing but background music

I understand, why he did leave

And you wish, you could have gone

With him.

And you don't believe in heaven

Its just another childish lie

You believe in darkness without goodbye's

Heaven don't even exist.

You like the dark, the sweet nothing, the darkness: death

I wish i could have gone there with him

But what about the emptyness?

The sweet nothing is already here

Would you even dare?

The dark is by your side: In your mind: Its your kinda light

You prefer dark

Light scares you

Dark is with you

It gives you right

Ugly, fucked up, useless: you

In the dark, you can hide

Feelings, cuts and the real you.

So maybe death will be with you too?