𝐕𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐇𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

𝐢 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮

×tw: mentions of eating disorders

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y/n pov

This is the worst I have ever felt. My head hurts, my body is aching, and I can barely think straight. I haven't eaten in over 24 hours. I have this really big photoshoot tomorrow and I want to look perfect.

I have been super stressed about it all week. Even though I know it's not a competition, I feel like I'm going up against all these beautiful girls. Addison, Charli, Anna, Nai...

I haven't been eating cause I thought it would make me skinnier or prettier for the shoot, but honestly I just look grey. I feel like I'm fading away.

"nothing tastes like skinny feels. nothing tastes like skinny feels. nothing tastes like skinny feels"

Is all I can hear in my head. I've started to struggle with eating again and it's really scary. Over the years I've had problems with eating disorders and self harm. I'm trying to stop but it just feels impossible.

When Vinnie sees me he'll be crushed. It doesn't matter what I tell him. He can take one look at me and know what's going on. It's easy for him to tell when I haven't been eating.

I can't stop my hands from shaking. Because I've had no energy all I've been doing is drinking coffee. tears are streaming down my face as it feels like I've completely lost control of my body.

I look over at my phone and see Vinnie texted me. "I'll be there in 10, love you"

Knowing Vinnie would want me to at least drink something other than coffee, I decide to get some water.

I lift myself up from my bed and shakily balance on my legs.

That's when everything goes black.

vinnie pov

once I finally get to y/n's house I hop out of my car. I stopped at the store and got some of her favorite snacks and drinks. I even got a little teddy bear.

I know she gets really stressed when she has a photoshoot coming up so I thought I would be extra sweet today. I open the door and slip my shoes off.

"Baby" I yell as I walk up the stairs. "Bubs?"

no answer.

Now I'm worried. I rush up the steps and open the bedroom door. And there I see her. My baby laying grey and motionless on the floor.

"No. No. No. y/n are you okay? Can you hear me"

I rush to her side. I'm shaking her shoulder trying to wake her. nothing. 

There is no way this is a prank. y/n knows this is one of my biggest fears. She would do a cheating prank before joking about something like this.

I continue to shake her with no response. Tears begin to from in my eyes and roll down my cheeks. "I can't lose you" I whisper.

Memories begin to flash in my head. Every date we've gone on every roadtrip adventure. Every midnight gas station stop, sleepover, movie night, and kiss.

Y/n is the only girl that has ever made me happy. I am completely lost without her. 

I fumble to pick up my phone and call 911. Just before my finger touches the call button, I see her eyes flutter open. 

"Babe?" I yell still horrified

"Vin? What- what's going on?" she says with a strained voice

I pull her up into my arms and hold her tighter than I ever have

"y/n I think you passed-" "You haven't been eating again" I mumble

"Please don't be mad at my" she whispers clinging onto me

"Baby I'm not mad at you but I'm really worried. I care so much about you and I can't keep letting you do this okay?"

I see her nod. 

I pick y/n up and lay her down on her bed. She cuddles up under the covers while I go get the bags of snacks and stuff I bought her. I hand her the teddy bear along with the other treats.

She takes a sip of the water and opens up one of the chip bags.

I lay down next to her as she snuggles her little nose in the side of my neck.

"I love you okay. I want to help you get through this. I know it's really hard but I'm here."

"I love you Vinnie"