Grace has always struggled with adulthood and the responsibilities that come with it, So when a handsome man moves in next door to her, the young 19 year old develops an unusual desire for her middle aged neighbor who's hell bent on discipline, bala...
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ENZO'S POV:
2 days.
That's how long I haven't seen or heard from Grace. The girl I couldn't, for the life of me, stop thinking of. The 19 year old that has replaced any other thoughts in my brain with ones that make me hate myself. the young girl that's just supposed to be my neighbor that I shouldn't have to interact with more than twice a week with a simple good morning or good evening, the temptress that won't stop making me question my morals and sanity.
What was it about her?
In just a short period of time she had become something like a friend. However, over the course of just a few weeks something else has bloomed between us and I was afraid to admit what.
Our last interaction had unlocked something deep within both of us, something so dangerous that we mutually thought it was best to keep our distances for the time being. We didn't have to talk about it, we could both feel it. Spending so much time together has interlinked us in a way, not to be melo dramatic but I can feel her presence even when she's not around.
That night she called me drunk, confessing all these secrets and begging for my presence, only just confirmed my previous assumptions. It gave me a flashback to that one night in her driveway where she also confessed her fantasies and desires. It was much like it, except I couldn't find it in me to say no this time. I didn't know what I was and I still don't know, but what I do know is that I cannot be near her.
I was afraid I would do something I would regret. Something I really wanted but would feel terrible about.
That woman has so much power over me it's uncanny. I've never felt such thrill and anticipation over anyone in my entire life and I didn't know if I liked it or not. This was new territory that I had no idea on how to properly approach without risking so much.
Grace is very beautiful, that I could never deny and her personality was much like mine, but also a contrast. We get along really good, a little too good if i'm being honest, and therefore we were able to create a nice innocent relationship but all this time i'd realized something that I had a pivoting feeling about in the back of my head yet never fully addressed it or was brave enough to confess- It wasn't because our personalities were the same and we understood each other based on experiences and such...
We were the real human form of everything we've ever wanted, everything we have ever desired.
I've always longed for a relationship dynamic where she was my equal but also my inferior- I have the control and she needs that control. I've been searching and searching for someone that was in front of me the entire time and instead of fully embracing it, I feel shame. No doubt she feels the same since i'm almost 20 years her senior however the difference between her and I is that it doesn't bother her.
A woman can seek a man of any age and it's seen as a flex or a huge accomplishment, but no one seems to think the same when the man in question is pursuing this said girl. That is why I cannot and will not give in to my impulses as it will be putting a lot at risk.
My job, my morals, the respect I have from so many will no longer be so strong again.
That is why, for the first time in weeks, I have finally stepped away from my home for another reason other than work. I used to stay there solely for Grace so that I could watch out for her but since im supposed to not involve myself with her anymore- I decided on a change of scenery.
" I have to admit, you are sticking out like a sore thumb right now." Jacquelin joked, luminescent lights of all different colors bouncing off her face. I shook my head with a small smile, knowing she was probably right. I haven't been to a club for my own personal entertainment in I want to say 10 years. Haven't had the passion for partying as much as I did in my youth, I mostly went to quieter places and found joy in being alone.
" I thought it was about time I let loose and just try to remember what it was like to be young and wild." I said taking a sip of my drink that was still mostly full despite the fact that i've had it for an hour.
" i'm glad you're here but I have to ask, if I may, what caused the sudden change of mind?"
I debated telling her the truth, I truste her, i've known her for years, and she's never made me regret telling her anything... but this was much different than the silly little problems I had back then. This was serious and although she didn't scare or get repulsed easily, I was still hesitant.
I took a long sip of my drink to ease my stress a little so maybe I could gain the courage to tell her. Swallowing thickly, I decided that I really needed some advice and who better to ask than my best friend of 14 years?
" a woman," I started, paying close attention to how her eyebrow raised in question. " well a girl if we're being technical actually, A girl that lives next door to me and it's a little complicated jac." I sighed as I ran a hand over my face.
She didn't say anything but I could tell there were a lot of questions running through her mind.
" She's 19, 20 now actually not that it matters, and I just feel so horrible for even thinking about someone so young. You know me, I've never been into younger girls. I mean, Anyone under 35 is where i'd usually cross the line so it just feels so wrong, so... gross. She's a great person really; mature, smart, beautiful." I took another sip as I avoided looking her in the eyes.
" let me ask you something, does she want you?" she questioned as she shifted in her seat to face me.
I nodded
" Is she a consenting adult, fully aware of her actions?"
I nodded again
" is it her age that you're specifically attracted to?"
" god no!" I grimaced.
She started laughing, grabbing my shoulders and shaking them . " Then there's nothing wrong with it! or you for that matter. You are genuine, you are fair, you are an amazing guy overall with nothing but kindness in you. There's nothing wrong with it Enzo, if you really like this girl then go for it."
Her words took me by surprise but it also sent a wave of relief through me. I knew all of those things, I just needed reassurance. No doubt her opinion is one in a million, but it was all I needed.
The woman didn't waste any more of our time, she grabbed me by my arm and dragged me to the dance floor, her drink spilling a little bit on us. I quickly got uncomfortable from being so close to so many people, my face clearly displaying my emotions.
I looked around expecting to just see complete strangers, yet in the very far side of the building, my eyes caught the eyes of someone I did not quite expect to see so soon, dancing so dirty, so inappropriately, so dangerously close to a guy I very much recognize.
A guy I very much despise, despite only knowing for 5 minutes. My face hardened while hers paled and suddenly it was as if it was just Grace and I in a large room, so far physically but so close emotionally.
I couldn't wait to get my hands on her.
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It's like way past my bed time and I wrote this chapter in a hurry so i'm sorry for any weird mistakes, but here's a short lil awaited chapter. Enjoy!
