Indigo's Mirror

Journal Entry #7

I remember

Remember how deep I fell,

Not for falling sake,

But falling into disbelief,

Falling to my knees,

falling for hope,

Praying the current would take me back in,

But now I'm stranded in the riptides of your misery.

I remember your first tear and how it flooded my heart with empathy,

How it manipulated me into thinking your water was good for me,

But now I realize that I wasn't polluted that tear was the calming before the storm.

I Remember the quantitive and qualities dates,

Numbers that are embedded in my skin forever,

Remember the stars I gazed upon as I looked toward your region,

but now those memories are only seasonal and not regional.

I remember that photograph, that smile, that happiness that blinded truth,

That face that could calm my demons

I remember the pain, the over thoughts the overtones of agonizing screams of my heart crying for that one thing,

Something I try to forget.

I remember when that sunset hit the water and embrace was a feeling,

but I never knew what the sun was teaching me when it happened then it clicked,

The sun taught me that as bright as it is... it will set and the ocean can either swallow you or float you to the unknown.

I feel as if my life is dyslexic seeing everything backwards,

Mixed signals perfectly straight heartbreak for love.

I remember the answers but I don't remember if you remember

I guess those memories went with the sun,

I guess to ask now is...

Do you remember?

I still can't believe I wrote this for her Mirror, was I stupid for falling in love in the first place?

Surely these things happen in life right? Heartbreak and misery? I wish someone could just love me for me and not my talents or status. 

This but this girl she keeps playing in mind. I don't know why but I have a feeling I am very soon,

Only the future can tell.                 

                                                                                                                                                           Until we meet again,

                                                                                                                                                            Indigo.