Journal Entry #4

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Dear Mirror,
I'm in pain, not physically but mentally. My mind tosses and turns like Ceasar salad, the feeling of not knowing the unknown is driving me insane. I used to love it when the rain fell but now I'm just jealous of the rain. The way it just falls without a care in the world and how it flows through everything like it's supposed to be there. The anxiety of not knowing what's the future may hold is scary. I wonder if there is someone across town that's feeling this way, the same heartbeat, same pain... Same thoughts. I hope that person is ok. I hope that person can love and trust in the plan put before them and hold on to the people that love em. I wish I could take my own advice. I haven't talked to God in a while too... I hope he's still watching over me. I always wondered if depression, anxiety, and phobias are tests that he puts in front of me, or is it the devil at work. In reality, you have to surrender to your mind because only it can make that decision. But what do you do when your mind doesn't even know. I wish you had the answer. 
                                                           Until we meet again,
                                                                                    Indigo
                                                                                   May 10

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Hey guys I thought I would give you a little break on the long chapters lmao however, I know some of you guys like the long one's. I'll keep them coming and stick around... it gets interesting.😊🙌

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