Guilty Indulgence

Prologue

The silence hung thick in the air as we both weren't certain. We weren't certain 'what' to voice to one another. I couldn't help but feel like there was some unexplained distance between us, even though I sat in the passenger seat next to him. My thoughts wandered to the light rosy and fluffy looking pillows of clouds that almost capture the pastels across the skyline and the hills that rolled past us; one at a time as I stared wonderingly out the window. See, we were heading towards the local airport because I'd had planned to travel for my summer break as long as I could remember before going off to college, to study 'English Language and Literature'. I can assume what you're thinking. She must be clever but let's just say they provided me with a captivating teacher at Trinity High. And let's indeed leave it at that.

I spent the first delightful week of my summer saying goodbye to my family and long-time friends, oh I'm going to miss my favourite bestie 'Samira' so much like it hurts to be apart it's as if bound by an imaginary umbilical cord that someone's just severed. Doesn't sound pleasant, does it? Well, it's not. It's complex to say goodbye to the ones that are closest to my heart.

France, here I come; you better be ready as Amelie will be in town; I'm looking forward to seeing 'La tour Eiffel pour de vrai'. As you would expect, I've learnt some French before I embark on my adventure. I'm going to send a post-card back home from every location I visit, well in till I can't afford anymore at least. This chapter of my life has come round so soon, I'm not even certain if I'm prepared.

"What are you daydreaming about?" He interrupted my thoughts. I didn't mind as it meant that he was still talking to me and that perhaps, just maybe, he'll have me in his future. I'll be his.

"Huh," wasn't quite hearing what he said.

"Just wondering what you were figuring out? You looked lost down a rabbit hole." he chuckled at the idea of my head stuck in a hole.

"What? What's so funny?" I swatted his arm to show that I wasn't laughing.

"Nothing, we are almost there,"

Shortly after he said that we pulled up outside the airport terminal. This was it. I hopped out the car to grab my luggage, but he beat me to it. We heaved my luggage out of the car; I noticed this was hard. It's hard to say goodbye to the man that within the recent year has been my everything. I'm indeed madly and deeply in love with him. I peered in his eyes and without a doubt he's finding this difficult too. He cleared his throat to say.

"Em, don't miss out on any experience or opportunities on my account. I want you to know that I'll be here for you, but I need to give you the chance to grow, the chance to become your own individual and the chance to explore the world without having me to hold you back." his eyes still fastened onto mine showed the pain within.

"What do you mean, Reece?" I said puzzled. I could feel a growing of anger inside of me.

"You grasp exactly what I'm suggesting,"

"You're breaking up with me here and now," Oh my blood was raging now, it is pulsating around my body. I'm going to burst.

"I think it's for the best." How Cliché?

That was it. I used my hands to grab the back of his head, and was on my tippy-toes to give myself some extra height so that I could press my lips firmly against his. All of my emotions rolled into one; one hell of a passionate kiss if I say so myself; as it took over all my actions. Once our lips were parted, I could see he was struggling with his arousal; his laboured breathing brushed lightly like a feather on my face whilst our foreheads touched. I definitely didn't want to let go of this, of him, but I knew I had. No matter how much pain, it'll cost me.

"Au revoir, Reece," I snapped. I turned around and walked away with my luggage in tow. Tears trailing down my face, they felt raw and fierce against my skin, leaving a mark of pain in their wake. I wanted to turn around, and nearly did, but it would hurt to see his face right now, to take a glimpse at him. It would destroy me.

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A/N: I want to let you know beforehand this story is going to be intentionally set in any academic year due to it being fiction; I'm going to be leaving out the year and have made up dates and days of the week to show passing of time. If you enjoyed the chapter, please give it a vote and comment. Ruzona < 3

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